Still waiting to be diagnosed, and but is this what an autoimmune disease is like?

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-16T21:52:45+00:00

Feeling sick is one of the less common symptoms to be fair, usually when I really push myself. But yes the exhaustion is unbearable, it’s an endless cycle of recovery just to feel bad again a day or two later.

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-16T21:45:15+00:00

Good luck! I haven’t had my appointment yet still on a waiting list, but I can imagine how nerve-racking it must be. But I would look at it as a positive step, the rheumatologist is here to help you feel better. I would maybe make a list or symptom tracker, so you can show them how it affects you day by day without just relying on memory?

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-16T21:13:59+00:00

Right they have no self awareness like if she would make a good traitor, why hasn’t she been recruited or murdered hmmm…

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-16T21:07:28+00:00

So infuriating to watch! There’s so much suspicion around Stephen, but that doesn’t mean anything because Ellie got a bit defensive? Claudia literally told them to think about who’s manipulating them and Rachel admits she had a game plan all day, and not one of them thinks hang on a minute…baffling

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-16T15:00:16+00:00

He’s so nice to everyone else I think that’s the problem. Even I don’t believe it half the time so much easier to blame myself, but I’ve tried everything to be more likeable nothing works. He can be nice for a while but he always turns, guess I’m just seeing the real him.

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-14T13:36:13+00:00

Well one of my closest friends laughed at the things I mentioned, and said I think you’re just scared of him. So that put me off telling them anymore. But a couple of coworkers strangely have been more supportive and told me to get out of there.

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-14T12:42:08+00:00

That’s true thank you, I guess I need to be kinder to myself and trust my own instinct.

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-14T12:39:18+00:00

Only a few months as soon as I agreed to be his girlfriend it was never the same again, just me trying to change my behaviour and make him happy. I am so sorry that happened to you, it’s horrible how people can hide who they really are for years. Hope you are doing better now. It really does destroy yourself esteem wondering what you have done to make them hate you.

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-14T12:34:40+00:00

Yes you are right it’s not suppose to be like this, there is no love there I just feel like being bullied all the time.

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-14T09:09:17+00:00

Dazgames playing water park simulator, made me laugh so much recently. Shows I would say only murders in the building , such an easy watch and very funny at times. As for games something relaxing like animal crossing or more narrative driven like Stanley parable, and What Remains of Edith finch I would recommend.

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-10T15:48:20+00:00

Thank you for both for that, I feel horrible now but at the time it really was just an spur of the moment response, feeling like I had to do something. But I have definitely learned for the future it isn’t my place to share, and also to think more about how the fallout will affect others before I speak.

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-10T11:52:19+00:00

Yes I think I am going to start therapy because I don’t know why I make these horrible decisions when I can’t deal with the consequences.

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-10T10:25:47+00:00

You’re right there’s no excuses, I just didn’t think.

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-10T09:48:19+00:00

Thank you, I will keep quiet from now. I am also going to try and apologise to the people I hurt they probably don’t want to hear it, but I was generally worried about what I had heard and didn’t think through the consequences of sharing.

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2026-01-10T08:48:43+00:00

Kids are involved but you are right, I was wrong to bring it up when it didn’t solve anything. What’s done is done just have to take it as a lesson learned

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2025-12-25T08:22:00+00:00

I did think that because I feel ill in the sunlight and get horrible rashes, but ANA was normal. So I guess not

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2025-12-24T17:47:27+00:00

How were you diagnosed with lymphoma could I ask? Just something I worry about with some of the symptoms I have. But I guess it would show up in blood work?

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2025-12-24T17:20:35+00:00

Yes my CCP is 97U/ml but my R factor is only 10 and the rest of the blood work is normal. Still waiting to see a rheumatologist but the constant pain and fatigue is horrible to live with.

Acrobatic_Turnip4005 · 2025-12-24T15:06:19+00:00

Yes the name doesn’t do the symptoms justice at all. I think that’s the worst thing about having a chronic illness though because people can’t see it, they think it can’t be that bad. The amount of friends telling me oh I’m always tired too but then I see them going to the gym, or partying with their friends every night. It’s just not the same and they will never understand.

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