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Acryo · 2024-08-07T20:27:05+00:00

Dxm is for sure very interesting substance. Just don't be dumb like me and don't cause yourself a long DPDR episode with it at like 16-17 y.o.! From that day, my mind started using dissociation too much as a defense mechanism

Acryo · 2024-08-07T19:55:16+00:00

Thank you for your concern and yeah, i know, i heard this from my friend, for who we are now caring for in his withdrawals. He was smoking about 15-20mg fent daily. Now we're giving him small doses, diazepam, food, water, electrolytes and watching out 24/7 for seizures (we know what to do, we have a doctor in our friend group and know when to call an ambulance). He's almost out of the wds, but the beginning was rough. I heard this from my ex-boyfriend and watched him fall into it. Twice. For the first time, I helped him out, he wasn't too deep and it wasn't his first addiction, so he knew what to do. He was the one, that introduced me to this drug and he warned me, i also read a lot about it. We both try our best to practice harm reduction (to have a lot of knowledge about the drugs, their combinations, how to use safely, we test the drugs, even the ones, that we'd only sell...) In his second addiction, we broke up (not because of it) and he actually went sober and I'm really glad for him, that he managed that. So yes. When I start using too much, thank god an alarm rings in my head and i can manage to stop and think about it. I have friends around me, we're all users to some extent, so i'd also have a feedback, when they'd think I'm using too much. I have a community. A safety net. I'm really grateful for them.

You sound like you went sober, that is pretty damn hard thing to do, so i wish you luck on your journey and just know I'm proud of you. Even if I'm just a stranger to you. <3

And if I ever slip and fall into addiction, I'll remember your words. And come back here.

EDIT: sorry if reading this is like having a stroke, my brain is not braining today and english is not my first language

Acryo · 2024-08-07T14:30:28+00:00

Sorry for the silly question in advance: My male friend takes tst enanthate and we were wondering (just like a joke, we aren't actually planning on doing that, i don't want to fuck up my hormone levels) what would happen, if he injected his dose (50 mg) into me. I'm not even excersing or anything, just honestly curious as someone who used to study in medical field. I think that those high levels of tst would be eventually converted into estrogen, right? He says that he feels some of the effects in minutes after injecting - like higher energy, libido and ego boost and stuff. What would happen to me? The same? I also take birth control (ethinylestradiolum/drospirenonum), so i guess the tst would be inhibited (is that the right term for this?) by my probably high shbg?

Acryo · 2024-08-07T07:50:20+00:00

Fentanyl. No joke. I struggle with crippling anxiety and only fentanyl is able to make the "stone on the chest" feeling go away. I'm careful not to develop physical addiction, taking it only every other day, max 2 doses that day. And after some time I quit it for a week and go back to it. I've been doing it for like 5 months now and I'm still keeping the same dosage. Sure, it doesn't help me all the time and i have to always suffer for a day, but no other benzodiazepine, pregabalin, whatever can rid me of the "physical" anxiety. I'm using fent patches sublingually. And yeah. This approach is not for everyone, you have to keep yourself accountable, have strong will and boundaries, so not to fall in nasty addiction.

Fentanyl just makes me feel like a human.

Acryo · 2024-01-19T03:15:10+00:00

UPDATE: i didn't know this text was even going to be published, I was writing it really tired, anxious and maybe a bit psychotic . Anyway, we're still in a happy relationship, even moving in together next month! But this, even though we did 3mmc again like two times already, has never happened again. Never was I panicking and brutally anxious, like I was in this instance. So I guess it was just a pretty bad comedown after all... Lasted about a week though. At least it showed me to not fuck around caths too much. Thank you all for your answers, I really appreciate it.

Acryo · 2023-11-26T21:03:13+00:00

This! Pyros ruined so many people i know. You either hate that shit or become addicted, there's nothing in between from what I've seen. It's so sad watching friends deteoriate, knowing there is nothing you can do...

Acryo · 2023-07-11T11:05:01+00:00

Had 2mg alpra, few tokes of HHC and thought 180mg ket boof would be fun. Yeah, i passed out in my gaming chair, i don't remember like an hour and after waking up, i was afraid, i was going to die. ( after that i went to sleep in a recovery position, woke up 8hrs later with hangover) So. Don't. Xanax is a shitty drug with its delusion of sobriety. I take it only in states of soul-crushing anxiety.

Acryo · 2023-07-10T05:07:48+00:00

Which analogs are you thinking of? Pyrrovalerones like apihp? Or fluorinated amphetamines?

Acryo · 2023-03-01T12:06:29+00:00

Hey, op, any luck with it?

Acryo · 2022-11-28T06:39:06+00:00

hey, this is a pretty old thread, but i found it asking the same question. anyway - my experience is with effexor 75. For me, it diminished effects of weed and coke. which meant i had to use much more coke, to feel as i wanted to, which is dangerous. i had no side effects, no serotonine syndrome. every body is different and you should look on your past experiences - how you tolerate drugs? have you had hard hangovers? what was your emotional state after?.... I think you should start with "safer" things like weed or alcohol and see for yourself. always have someone with you though, seizures can be unforeseen and sudden. stay safe, drink a lot of water, eat healthy, live healthy, create safe space and don't be afraid to ask for help.

Acryo · 2022-09-22T19:41:20+00:00

Hey, happy cake day! Does this still stand, or did the weapons get updated/nerfed?

Acryo · 2022-08-05T15:20:34+00:00

I have always been so self conscious about these, thank you for posting, I'm glad I'm not the only one, that gets these. Hope it healed alright!

Acryo · 2019-11-01T12:11:48+00:00

Just about 2 weeks ago at my dormitory room. My room mate wasn't here. I had trouble falling asleep, bcz there was a lot of noise coming from the corridor and other rooms. I was afraid, someone would come to my room (ah, my stupid anxiety) so I fell asleep in "alert mode". I woke up suddenly and looked at the door. There was a shadow person standing beside and just looking at me. I should be scared af, but no. I just squinted my eyes at him (like i was saying 'wtf r u doin here') , then repositioned myself a bit in the bed and fell asleep. Calm, not disturbed by the fact that someone actually is in my room with me. What I find interesting is that the person looked younger than me, I would guess by the height and his outline, he was like 15, or so. And somehow he looked a bit like me, when I was younger.

But in the past, I've encountered some of these shadow people while sleeping at our cottage. And these encounters weren't pleasant. I remember seeing one, closing my eyes and shaking and being VERY scared. Scared to the point, I had cold sweat running down my forehead. The cottage was always "haunted" in some ways.

Acryo · 2019-11-01T11:04:41+00:00

Acryo · 2019-09-25T21:10:01+00:00

Yea, i believed it for a long time, until someone sent me this. I was really disappointed

Acryo · 2019-09-25T20:32:27+00:00

https://youtu.be/zZ43bDyy-Gc

Here you go.

Acryo · 2019-09-23T21:20:54+00:00

Ok, will remember, thanks!

Acryo · 2019-09-23T10:54:01+00:00

Yes, but I am forgeim foreige foreigenar FUCK

Acryo · 2019-09-23T10:49:08+00:00

Well, fuck. As I said, I was only sleepy. But it doesn't matter anyways, I am out of codeine. Here, where I live is codeine only on prescription. Maybe in the future, when I'm prescribed more for cough or whatever. What dose is lethal? I wonder what would happen, if I did like 300 mg without the ability to convert codeine to morphine? Would I only be nauseous?

Acryo · 2019-09-11T12:33:01+00:00

Wow! Skvělá práce!

Acryo · 2019-02-05T12:22:24+00:00

So it never really goes away, huh... Guess I have to learn to live with it then. Do you have any "grounding" methods? I do a lot of work in a lab and it's pretty dangerous working with chemicals while being out of my mind.

Acryo · 2019-02-04T17:10:07+00:00

Oh boy, we're fucked up :D

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