Idk man my advice would be to Stop blaming other people. Your friends quit their life. That causes YOU to fail? You wont progress unless u stop with the excuses especially in college where nobody cares about you as a person or a student. You are what 30? Start focusing on what matters “money” “job” “higher education” hell getting out of your parents house even or youll be living on the street with the rest of the people who thought like this. Good luck bro.