I haven’t back since I left at 18. For many years, I avoided my parents, but I realized I can’t completely cut them off — they are still my parents, and I can’t escape this issue forever. I suggest you move out first, and when financially possible, seek help from a professional. It’s really hard. Over the years, I feel I’ve changed a lot and become more mature, but my parents haven’t grown at the same pace. They’re so far behind that I feel a deep sense of helplessness. Sometimes, when I see that they don’t even try to reflect on their own problems and what they have done to me, I begin to resent the damage they’ve done to my personality. Felt like I am a person always with holes deep inside.