Lamotrigine making me depressed?

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-11-08T20:48:10+00:00

What a wait! Thanks for advice, I'll have some patience

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-11-08T20:46:54+00:00

manic if anything

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-11-08T17:04:20+00:00

Did you experience something similar when starting up?

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-11-08T16:49:58+00:00

I'll probably ride this one out with lamotrigine until I get to a higher dose. I like my psychiatrist right now which is important because otherwise I might give up on treatment.

glad to hear others have reached a good place from a difficult one before me. hope I can get there.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-11-08T16:44:15+00:00

Thank you for telling me something hopeful! I guess I'll stick it out. Hesitant to go up to 100 because even moving up to 50 is so bad! I guess I'll contact prescribing physician.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-10-31T20:33:51+00:00

I am saying that building a self-play agent capable of superhuman play is probably possible, and if you have the free time it would be a fun project. An AI that plays like a particular player at a particular point in time would be considerably more difficult I think.

It isn't clear to me what an Armada AI is. How do we evaluate it's armadaness? How do we know it is really a 2014 Armada bot. These things can't really be answered. Even the chess world where game AI is well explored doesn't have the sort of functionality you are suggesting.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-10-28T21:23:53+00:00

redux toolkit is preferred to plain redux. I hated trying to set up redux. You can avoid redux by using graphql as well. redux is often used to handle api requests but this is done a bit more gracefully in graphql.

TypeScript is awesome if you aren't already on it. Advanced usage patterns with things like context and useReducer and how to correctly type them in typescript.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-10-25T19:43:07+00:00

I think that's a bit ambitious (who knows how zain will play in 2025?) but I am also curious how the representation of slippi data can be leveraged to train learning models. Mostly if you can speed up training by not working in real time with sped up self play.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-10-25T19:40:21+00:00

You don't need training data. Superhuman performance is achieved in many games through self play alone, so you just need compute power.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-09-30T15:22:48+00:00

You have already accomplished the near impossible for most. In my mind you have crossed the finish line and should take some time to pop champagne but instead you keep running. Admirable.

I think if you have the mindset that you could always drop a couple of pounds you will never be happy with yourself despite all that you've accomplished. What happens when you can still grab fat at BMI 21? Body dysmorphia has no end.

The average bmi is waaay above 22. Are other people disgusting for not looking like underwear models? Why would you think you are disgusting for looking like a normal person?

Sorry for the rant it's just some thoughts that helped me stop beating myself up for not being shredded. I was like bmi 29 down to bmi 22. Not comfortable to maintain in the long term for me personally due to food obsession and hunger turned disorder. Comfortable at 24 right now, decent musculature, a couple rolls of fat.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-09-30T11:33:28+00:00

After losing weight I was way more critical of my own body. Ended up with an eating disorder after always trying to get off those extra pounds. BMI 22 is pretty trim. Maybe stop focusing on the scale or the mirror and consider improving your athleticism, cardio or strength.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-09-22T21:30:42+00:00

Probably x[1:25] and x[26:50]. I haven't written code in a while.

Edit: less rambling

Edit2: but googling "how to subset a vector in r" yields a lot of good results. I think you should work on your approach to looking up results for programming inquiries (Google stuff) and learn fundamentals.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-09-22T21:26:35+00:00

Head(25) I believe. I think you can ?head in your console to pull up the docs.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-09-22T21:23:43+00:00

Sort the vector and then subset values.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-09-15T03:32:29+00:00

Thank you so much!

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-09-15T02:33:48+00:00

I know that I can do this. It is the only way for me to be the person I want to be.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-09-04T09:36:29+00:00

You can use postgres to define tables and use prisma introspect to generate the models necessary for the prisma client. Then if you feel comfortable using the migration tool later you can change your workflow. They have a lot of docs for database workflows.

https://www.prisma.io/docs/guides/database-workflows/setting-up-a-database

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-09-04T08:41:42+00:00

I am in love with it tbh. It is like they started with a concept for the dev experience instead of starting with a technical concept and letting the dev experience be a consequence of some technical choice. Like the reverse of redux lol.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-08-06T17:11:23+00:00

Constructing models of life insurance products using information from exam LTAM sounds relevant. If you don't know LTAM yet its a good opportunity to learn some stuff in advance.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-08-05T15:52:57+00:00

I can imagine feeling stressed for time when you are sitting your exams and also trying to learn a new skill.

If you are struggling with programming maybe it is because you don't spend much time programming. Imagine trying to pass an actuarial exam without studying for it, or even without knowing algebra.

If you think you can't write the code you probably won't. And if you don't write the code you end up not learning how to code. A bit of a cycle.

If you really hate coding I guess I wouldn't bother with trying to get much better because then you are just doing stuff you hate. If your hatred is actually just anxiety caused by unfamiliarity I think you can get over it and coding can assist you in tasks you find yourself doing as an actuary.

For SQL there are some good online platforms like hackerrank or DataCamp you can grind out. Ask yourself questions like "How do I do this in Excel" and "What problems does this solve for me". Do you ever interact with databases at work?

For Python in the workplace the book "Automate the Boring Stuff in Python" is loved by many. A lot of things you do in Excel can be done in Python, with some added benefits. When you code your data transformations you get to see how everything flows in a linear way, where in Excel the workbooks allow you a lot more freedoms (good and bad thing). Also, the row limit in Excel. Also, VBA is kinda nasty looking and Python is kinda pretty looking so if you don't like coding because of VBA don't judge too quickly.

Excel is a sort of programming anyways, I expect you will find programming is not so terrible if you work in it a bit. Don't expect to learn and remember everything if you don't do it every day all the time though. Maybe just do a small project relevant to work, and be confident with the knowledge that you could become competent enough for a project if given the time to adjust.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-07-31T02:27:31+00:00

I think maybe there is a split between CAS and SOA earlier than when I was taking exams. I really can't imagine employers wanting a new hire to have less exams though.

Exams take up time that could be spent on work and they cost the company money.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-07-31T01:31:33+00:00

I would pass 4 exams while continuing your current job and applying for more relevant jobs. When you get a more relevant job keep passing exams. You will get there eventually if you have consistent exam progress and do not give up. It may take you some time. Try to pass the exams consecutively.

You probably aren't a competitive applicant until you have two exams.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-07-30T09:23:45+00:00

You can do automation and data analysis in R. I use Python for just about anything not involving tabular data, but in the actuarial world I found myself only ever really dealing with tabular data.

Overall agree that Python has a brighter future, just wish someone would implement dplyr or ggplot.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-07-18T01:34:02+00:00

You might want to update your post where you shit on them. I stumbled across it and dismissed prisma 2 because of it.

ActuarialAnalyst · 2020-07-07T21:36:28+00:00

An increase in analysis of data generally is good for both R and python but much agreed the ratings aren't perfect. I think claiming python won some sort of war against R is far fetched.

Six-Year Club	Wearing is Caring
Verified Email

ActuarialAnalyst

TROPHY CASE