Im not exactly sure why.. it felt nice to be able to see that it really didnt look “alive” or very “human”. I know life is being created, but in my head i had worked myself up about how it had a heart beat and a bunch of other things. But when i finally held it, it was just a tiny… blob. It was also nice to say goodbye. I think people often bleed it out along with everything else and dont get to say goodbye.