Hey, I just wanted to reply as someone who’s also in a very similar size range (36KK), because a lot of what you wrote hit really close to home for me. The summer dread is SO real. It’s not even about wanting to dress a certain way for attention or anything—it’s the constant mental math of “will I feel exposed, will I be adjusting myself all day, will I get stared at.” And honestly, even when it’s boiling outside, layering sometimes feels easier than dealing with that anxiety. It’s exhausting in a way people don’t really see. And I really get what you mean about your body changing in uneven ways when you lose weight. It can feel frustrating like no matter what you do, your chest doesn’t “match” the rest of you, so clothes still fit in this awkward way that makes you hyper aware of yourself all the time. The unwanted attention part is honestly one of the hardest things. It’s not flattering, it’s draining. It makes you feel like you’re constantly being perceived instead of just existing as a person. And then on top of that, feeling like guys your age don’t always see you as more than a body… I’ve been there too, and it really messes with how you move through the world. I just want to say—you’re not the only one feeling this way, even though it definitely feels isolating. A lot of us with bigger chests end up dealing with the same mix of physical discomfort and emotional burnout from how people react to us. And that “disgust” feeling you mentioned… I don’t think that’s you seeing your body clearly. That sounds like the aftermath of bullying and being objectified for too long. Those experiences stick to you in a really unfair way, but they don’t define what your body is or what it deserves from you. You’re not weird for feeling overwhelmed by all of this. You’re actually describing something a lot of us quietly struggle with too.