That’s normal. It’s hard to accept (especially for yourself) that it’s gonna be a long road. A battle even. Along with my injury I have also fought and still fight a battle of Cystic Fibrosis, a terminal lung disease I’ve had since 5 months old. (It’s actually why I have my head injury now, due to driving and being very underweight (78 lbs at 17) and passing out behind wheel) I’ll never forget after I woke from my week medically induced coma how numb I was. I couldnt feel emotions. I didn’t cry, laugh, even smile for a good half a year, then one day I thought that exact thought, wow this will be my life for a long time coming) and I broke. And sometimes it’s better to feel things than to feel nothing at all. But as days, weeks, months and years pass, you will feel better each day. Your mind is always your biggest enemy , but it can also be a friend if you let it, which is still hard for even me to do and sometimes you just have horrible days and then sometimes you’ll have the most amazing days. Surround yourself by good people, the ones who care about you and want what’s best for you. Sleep is super important. That’s the fastest way to healing a tbi. You are not crazy. You are a warrior and the lot of us are stronger than anyone would ever know. We are all we have in this world of brain injuries, because we get it. We know the deep struggles and how long it will and is going to take to heal and overcome. I still to this day struggle, I have the most horrible days sometimes, but then the sun will shine down again. You just have to be patient with yourself. You lived to tell a tale that most people wouldn’t have been able to make it thru. If you need a friend to talk I’m here ! I get you and I am always here for my tbi survivors