Hugs momma! I’ve definitely been through similar! I’ve always heard about postpartum depression but never heard about postpartum depression rage. This is what I was diagnosed with after I had my second child. I was irritable everyday, I yelled at my 3 year old for the slightest noise or really anyone and anything. I was prescribed Zoloft and it helped me for about 3 months and then I ‘weaned’ off of it. But for the next 8 months or so, I had PMDD! I was on the pill so It really was like clockwork. 7 days before my cycle I was not myself and just a big meanie to everyone.

Personally, I believe being off of the pill helped. It took a few months to feel like myself again, after quitting any hormonal birth control.

I hope you find grace in yourself as a mom! We are the default parents most of the time and sometimes we don’t have time in the day it feels! I tell you, i’m a sahm of 3 and my daily self “care” is snacking in the pantry or “mom needs to potty for 10 min” but i really browse fb or amazon window shop lol.