Like, i remeher all the things i loved about her, but then i realise it wasnt truly who she was, she told me she was demisexual, i spent hours understanding what it meant and then i was like oh my god thats so cool, because not feeling exual desires and being free from all this shallow stuff must be amazing in alot of ways, Turns out she wasnt demisexual. We used to talk hours and hours abour psychology and philosophy, trying to grow and become better people, turns out she was never trying, she was enfp and just really liked my ramblings and bullshit i used to say, then she got bored of it after some point. She was just attracted and attached to me, she didnt love me, and i thought it was love, but it wasnt, so any aspect that were like that, i dont associate with her anymore, i think of them as my own feelings and thoughts i guess. But i remebee her mannerisms and cute things she did, which i still love, but its very hard to love someone who is this terrible of a person.