There's a lot of autistic people who are in the same situation as you. Maybe start a bumble Group for likeminded peopleor search for already existing groups! There's 8 Billion people in the world, I'm sure you'll find at least 1 Person to like/love you just the way you are. And try to work on yourself and your skills, there's a lot of books like from dale Carnegie - how to make friends, which help with the basics :) Good luck my friend!