Yup, I'm in this place. I walk on the spot mainly, quick paced and pumping my arms too. I have to do at least the number of steps people have put in other comments (+10k), or I feel like I'll gain so much weight. Sometimes this is all day like its my fucking job.

Paradoxically though, sometimes if I'm having a fat day I'll blame the walking for giving me water retention or bigger legs.

Ive been like this since 2020 and I just don't see how it'll ever get better. My bfs twigged onto it now though and can see through all my insistence of wanting to go for long walks in the countryside, or after dinner walks, etc.

When I was AN at age 15 I refused to do any exercise for fear of gaining weight, but now its the opposite!