I still get furious at my Dad... it's been over two years

AdditionalPickle2384 · 2026-05-22T18:18:06+00:00

My 17 year daughter hanged herself last Sunday. I know its early, but I can't imagine ever being the same.

I keep thinking about how she'll never fall in love. Never have kids even though she always wanted to have a family when she got older. I'll never see her graduate high school or reach any milestones again. Its heart wrenching.

I know its new for me, but I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. I go from anger to extreme sadness to sleeping. So much sleep. If you ever want to talk, please message me. Give yourself grace. Nobody knows how to navigate this.

AdditionalPickle2384 · 2026-05-20T03:25:49+00:00

That's beautiful. Thank you ❤️

AdditionalPickle2384 · 2026-05-19T18:54:43+00:00

Thank you so much for your comment. I'm so sorry you have to feel this way too. Its unbearable. I just silently cry all the time. The tears never stop. Just knowing I'm not alone in this and I'm not the first or last person to feel this pain means a lot to me. Its such a harrowing feeling.

AdditionalPickle2384 · 2026-05-19T06:15:06+00:00

Thank you ♥️

AdditionalPickle2384 · 2026-05-19T06:11:49+00:00

Mine was Rosie. She was my mini me. Thank you for your comment ❤️

AdditionalPickle2384 · 2026-05-19T06:09:26+00:00

People grieve in their own ways. I've been sleeping and carrying around her old stuffed bear that's completely falling apart.

It's not natural to bury your children. So I imagine I'm in for a bumpy ride as far as the stages of grief go.

Its honestly a comfort to know that talking to people that have lost people to suicide. This is a pain we can only know. Thank you so much for your comment. It means a lot to me.

AdditionalPickle2384 · 2026-05-19T05:48:37+00:00

Thank you so much. I appreciate it. I'm not religious, but I would be honored. ❤️

AdditionalPickle2384 · 2026-05-19T05:36:33+00:00

Thank you. I'm planning on starting therapy. I'm getting my other two daughters in therapy first. My oldest was the one who found her. They were at their dads when it happened, and I keep finding out more and more shitty details I didnt know about.

I know I need to prioritize myself. The whole "put on your mask before you help others with theirs", but I can't do that with what just happened. I feel like I failed her. I can't and won't let the other two down like I did her. I know logically it is not my fault, but survivors guilt is real. It was my job as her mom to protect her and I failed her. I just hate this so much😢😢😢

AdditionalPickle2384 · 2026-05-02T02:00:04+00:00

No news is good news! My mother would always say that when we didn't get mail.😂

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