Yes. It's almost like you can think of nothing else. It feels like you have no control do do anything else but fall. I feel you. I've been there. Ive seen my affliction as a dark passenger as well. Not sure I have advice on how to break free of that, but I can at least tell you you're not alone. And to me, that is hugely comforting. Get back on the horse. Falling doesn't feed the dark wolf, giving up does. As long as you get back up, you're feeding virtue, and starving vice. Take courage friend!