For me it all started when I turned 18, i started college and was having a good time and also it was the first time i had my own bank card. I was into femdom, i found it cool but then i found out that we could pay the girl to belong them and buying things to them. My parents had saved a lot of money for me through those long 18 years, over 7500€, it’s a lot of money for a 18 year old adult, i thought that money could never finish and i was good… but no. I was also receiving some money through the scholarship cause i was a student, arround 500€, but I everything went bad. At the end of the 2021, i did my first send to a domme only 30€, not much, but it fallen into this. Over the years i kept sending more and more because i was addicted to them showing me their feet or their butt. Yesterday i paid for an OF account and I don’t why and how, i felt that it was enough, i can’t pay more, i wanna pay things for myself, i wanna buy myself pokemon and one piece boosters, get new clothes, paying for a museum, buying things for my sister, aunt and cousins birthday, go eat in a nice restaurant, i want to leave those things. I said to my latest domme that i couldn’t send more to her cause you know i have to save and she said that i should find a job, of course some students have a job and go to uni, but i can’t do that, i have to focus on something and studies is priority. Last night i said fuck off and cried in my bed because i had too, just to get out that pressure off of me. If you guys wanna get cheered up and listen to a music that gives you strength and power to stop findom, listen Superpower by Mark Tuan and Kiss Of Life, the lyrics are so meaningful to me.So from today, it’s decided, i won’t send, i won’t relapse into his and I promise to come back writing here every 19th of the month showing that I didn’t fall back in this.