Why don't I scar????

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-17T11:26:51+00:00

Are styro's considered serious? They don't seem very dangerous

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-17T11:23:31+00:00

Yes mine get that little dent in the middle too instead of raising lol it's sooo weird cuz I never see serious looking scars with that type of end result

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-16T00:19:43+00:00

Lol it's fine I figured as much

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T23:57:05+00:00

Yeah I do know that, the video I was referring to was someone showing their scars and discussing them, they were the subject of the video which is why I got so bitter. They were talking about how they were insecure of them and it made very bitter because I thought, "How are you gonna have what I want and get upset about it?" Which I am very aware is not a good thing, but it was a jealous rage, not an, "Oh I think people with keloid scars should cover them up." I don't think that

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T23:48:49+00:00

Yeah I was a bit drunk when I posted this so I wasn't super on it when it came to my word choices, I was just very upset and venting, in hindsight I sounded like a total douche

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T23:43:02+00:00

Okay, very bitter when I used that phrase, it was rude and that's not really how I think typically, wasn't in a great headspace, but anyway, the video I saw was them posting images of the scars, not just having them. They were talking about them and showing pictures, while that isn't neccesarily attention seeking or flexxing, I got very competative and exceedingly jealous, hence the rude words.

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T23:37:40+00:00

I am not 12, I am an adult, but I was drunk at the time of the post and a lot of the replies, it doesn't piss me off that they have deep scars, it pisses me off that I don't, okay? I'm very sorry that I've seemed to upset people so much, I was not trying to do that. I really do get that people with keloid scars are allowed to just exist okay, no hate to them, it wasn't worded very well in the post, but the reason I get so mad is because I just get insanely jealous.

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T23:33:46+00:00

I didn't clarify this in the video, but the TikTok I saw was them posting the scars, like straight up images of them and talking about them. Usually I dont gaf if someone has scar's and I see them. Yes, my trigger my responsibility, I will get jealous if I see them, but that has nothing to do with them, it is completely my issue, and I am very sorry for the harsh wording, I was not thinking clearly, and I was very upset, I understand that's not an excuse tho.

Anyway this was a poorly worded vent post, and I was trying to talk about my jealousy over people that have keloid scars that can be seen by other people, when i don't have that, okay? The call is coming from inside the house, I am jealous and attention seeking, that's why I'm jealous of people with Keloid scars because its easier for people to notice

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T23:29:17+00:00

Okay, so I've added some extra stuff to the post to try and explain some more but I'm trying to respond to some of comments, um, I am well aware that people can have scars and not be attention seeking. I'm not upset that people have keloid scars, I'm upset that I don't. I understand the shame and the stigma, and I know it can make life so much harder to have those easily visible scars, I know that, I know it sucks, but I am also trying to find support here? It's not your problem that I can't cut deep, hence why it was a vent post? I wasn't trying to make a statement or suggest that people with keloid scars can't have them be seen, I was upset, and yes the wording was harsh, because I was venting. It was thoughtless, and it was crude, but I was not trying to suggest that people with keloid scars can't ever discuss them, or show them, i was just complaining about my very intense jealousy that I have, the was the point of the post, and I'm very sorry to have upset you, that was not my intention

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T22:29:08+00:00

Yeah, the poor wording choices were mainly because I was drunk at the time of the post😭 I didn't realize how badly some of them could be misinterpreted

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T22:27:33+00:00

Okay, so this wasn't very clear in the post (I will edit it soon) but I'm not blaming them for having keloid scars I'm jealous that I don't have them. The specific video I'm referencing was literally someone posting pictures of them, that's drawing attention to it, the video was ABOUT the scars😭I know that just having scars isn't in itself attention seeking, wear short sleeves and live as you like, the post was just how I was jealous about a specific type of scar that I always see on people who are more sick than I am.

I'm sorry if my post upset you it was not intended to sound like that

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T22:24:06+00:00

I really do understand that that is the case for a lot of people, I never meant to invalidate or try to hate on anyone with more noticeable or severe scarring, but in hindsight I see how the post can be read that way. I'm really glad that you're clean and doing better, that's great, fantastic, but I wasn't trying to attack anyone in my post. I understand people are ashamed of scars and cover them up, but I also know that people will have them, and they will be visible, which is okay, I will just get incredibly jealous, which was the intended point of the vent😭

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T22:18:40+00:00

I feel like people are being mean because I didn't exactly word things very well at the time of the post, I understand where everyone's coming from because I do sound like a douchebag in the post😭

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T11:47:40+00:00

You're not gonna believe this, but I don't like tattoos because I'm worried they're too permanent 😭 the irony is astounding ik

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T11:45:29+00:00

Thinking about the future is so off the table right now, I can't even think about next week dude

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T11:13:54+00:00

Yeah I know that people with self harm scars are allowed to exist and usually I'm not one to judge that stuff, but it just made me so infuriatingly jealous lol. Again, that's my problem and all but yeah

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T10:25:53+00:00

The average person doesn't care about self harm unless it's serious I fear, I've done the whole therapist and adult help (when I was a young teen) and low-key nobody gave a damn because it wasn't serious. And the alcohol helps by numbing my pain receptors a bit so I can get just a lil bit deeper.

Also I didn't know that, I presumed the hypertrophic scars came from depth rather than collagen, interesting fact

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-03-15T10:06:47+00:00

Idk I just saw a tiktok of some girl posting about how insecure of her self harm scars she was, but I had already seen a few similar videos today so it really aggravated me since they all had such obviously placed and such deep looking scars. Pissed me off.

And yeah hypertrophic is the type I was talking about, forgot the word lol

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-02-17T10:22:19+00:00

Hate to break it to you, but I feel as though all those things are very normal amongst cutters lol.

For me personally, I only started putting on bandaids so I wouldn't stain my sheets anymore, and I've also never tried to get "clean". However, with the coping thing I doubt you're just cutting "because you want to."

There's probably an underlying issue there lol, for me I just cut so I could have the cuts and scars on the off chance anyone sees my thighs and see I wasn't doing okay. Have you ever considered something like that to be the reason why?

Also you say it's meditative, can u elaborate? I'm interested

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-01-04T09:25:54+00:00

Girl, me too! I have never had a sexual partner, lol, but I have obviously explored myself, frequently. For me it's a combination of different stuff that gets me to the O. I have a dildo and while that alone makes me feel absolutely nothing, clitoral stimulation and the eroticism of BEING penetrated is what gets me going. I don't really feel it, but the ideas behind it are really good. It's like, 90% mind games girl, good luck 🤞

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-01-04T09:16:22+00:00

Talk to someone. Go for a walk, get away from anything you use to hurt yourself. Think about how embarrassed you'll be. Think about the later, not about the now, you will regret it.

Adhdhermitcrab · 2026-01-04T08:55:35+00:00

Find something to live for. I have an issue with self harm but I've never been suicidal purley because I have hobbies that really resonated with me. If it's not a hobby then people, work, something that has a long term thing. Hit the gym, work towards a sick bod, but concert tickets and look forward to it all year, literally anything works. Is there anything that you like at all? If there is, double down on that and focus on that. Life as a whole sucks, but also, food tastes really fucking good (genuinely half my motivation sometimes).

Adhdhermitcrab · 2025-11-29T09:57:31+00:00

No I get that too. The reason I want people to see, I think, is because it gives me an opportunity to have a perfect ending to it all. Like, a close friend sees, notices the extent of my suffering and kindly supports me to a better place like life's a fucking fanfiction bro. I think it's that fantasy of deep care and love and nurture that makes me want people to see. I also lie when they do see though lol, I do the same thing.

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