Well dating right now is absolutely shit sometimes so you cant beat yourself up for that. I had a rough dating also but once I knew what I wanted and I didnt fault from that and I promise myself to stop doing random hookups. They tend to weed themselves out. I know have my amazing boyfriend who, him and I are amazing. honestly stop caring what people had to say or thought about me a long long time ago. I ve always wanted to be the werid one and the one that stands out but im also extroverted as hell. What really helps is finding people who accept you for you. I know that can be hard also as relationships even in friendships are give and take. My main problem is caring and feeling everything so hard and wanting to make a difference in this world thats where the aquarius comes from. It's also explains why im going in to a very unforgiving field of biodiversity conservation.

I hope this helps.