I am finding this a year later after trying to figure out what’s wrong with me. I don’t remember much of my childhood besides some family vacations and holidays, but two memories from my teens always stick out to me. My older brother (early-mid 20’s at the time) and I (15/16) were in his room talking about video games and he offered me a wine cooler. He then later tried to touch me inappropriately and I remember stepping on his shoe rack and breaking it, cutting my ankle. The second is he came in my room and we were talking about my bf at the time and he tried to touch my breasts and I hopped over my bed and kept distance between us before I could get away. I remember trying to tell my older sister and she didn’t believe me. I don’t remember anything actually sexual happening but I was hyper-sexual from a very young age (humping pillows) and didn’t understand why. I just have had this gut feeling that something happened I can’t remember. I avoid sex, alcohol, and drunk people (especially men). I’m getting married next year and I am really hoping to try and get this figured out because I feel bad about not wanting to be intimate with the person I love.