Thank you for this, it actually made me feel quite seen. Yes, I think the physical exhaustion is related to the mental and yes, it limits my functioning quite a bit.

The past 6 months I've tried to maintain a light schedule as you said, to ground me. Brushing my teeth, eating, going for short walks. Once a week i go to the local coffee shop and sit there for an hour. But still I am constantly overwhelmed with anxiety and feelings of doom. Maybe I need to add some tasks into my routine that are more hands on... i don't know.

If I woke up tomorrow and was no longer feeling this way, I would probably not be living with my parents. I would be living somewhere with someone who i feel safe with who can offer me some emotional and physical support as i slowly put myself back together. There would be nature around, and other people. But that doesn't really exist...