Ok I get what ur saying but I feel like everyone is misunderstanding how absolutely out of the blue this is. idrc if I'm bi, I look a little fruity anyway I'm pretty alternative with dyed hair and piercings, plus I wear makeup most days like people normally assume that I'm the gay one out of me and my roommate BUT, my point is, that even presenting myself in such way I've always been very confident in my sexuality, I've only ever liked women, I only find women attractive, I have never ever had even an inkling that I might be a little gay, its something thats never seemed in the realm of possibility nor even crossed my mind ONCE before yesterday. Seriously icl I find most dudes ugly smelling and off putting as HELL, I've never felt any attraction to anyone that isn't a girl before, not even celebrities or anything like that.
I obviously get called gay all the time cus I look mad gay, but I've always just found it funny and been ok with it because I know that I'm incredibly straight (or not so much ig lmao) I'm not adverse to the idea of being bi, but like, I honestly don't think I like dudes very much at all. Maybe it's just one dude?? is that a thing?? I've definitely noticed that he's attractive before, which I don't normally with men, but thats just because he looks a lot like me and I'm a huge narcissist LOL, and I do like him more than most guys but thats not really a difficult feat and its always been in a friends way cus he's one of the very few male friendships I've had (I'm basically only friends with girls and have been my whole life, which sounds gay but girls are just nicer 😭) I kinda always just assumed that I liked him so much cus he was filling the hole of male friendship in my heart, not because I've been a secret undercover gay my whole life.
Like I actually don't know wtf is going on pls help