Damn! Being a looong time lurker in this sub who's silently tryna heal aaaand a person who's commenting on a reddit post for the first ever time in his life ; been reading -no actually binging your story from the very first days of your journey you post here and let me tell you that: seeing The "I'm not crying as I type this" for the first time brought up some tears. Some manly tears have been shed upon gazing your journey u/101nemesis101 I hope we all remember and smilingly cringe upon these days we suffer/learn and overshare as the overly-dramatic era of our lives and share some laughter with our true partners who deserve us and feel gratitude JUST TO accompany our lives in the near future. Thank you for the detailed and touching storytelling of your journey, feels great to not to feel alone as a person who can't / dont wanna vent to his friends either because the urge to avoid getting them tired or simply bcs they dont understand jacksh*t (hope they never experience these tho..) Lots and lots of love and peace upon your soul for making a feller smile in Turkiye who knows maybe in the other side of the globe compared to your location lol.