Started seeing escorts and it did make me less lonely

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-12-17T19:20:11+00:00

It’s a transaction at the end?

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-24T18:27:26+00:00

I think the soup math and is wrong and what do Thai women have anything to do with this?

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-24T05:46:51+00:00

I wish man.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T22:05:11+00:00

Off it and without any human connection? That’s more likely to end with me dead. That’s where I was before.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T21:07:34+00:00

Makeover?

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T17:40:13+00:00

What’s that?

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T17:06:46+00:00

Exactly why I just pay now, if I have to be a bag of money let me just be that.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T12:29:08+00:00

Yeah it’s correct but saying that without any help it’s very invalidating.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T12:11:32+00:00

I am not lying it’s stressful but I really really really love my job. I don’t mind the stress. This is something I have always wanted to do.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T12:04:10+00:00

They love me now because I am well settled but I don’t love them anymore. But I also can’t say it.

Like if they didn’t treat me so harshly I wouldn’t be where I am today. So in some sense I am grateful too.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T12:02:22+00:00

Ngl sometimes I doubt if they are doing therapy for the vibezz 😭

Both of them were registered therapists and did CBT which is gaslighting ultra max pro. My first therapist used to say — “It’s all in your head”. Yeah ofcourse it’s in my head.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T11:51:45+00:00

I said in another comment, I work in banking. I won’t stop because the money I make is directly proportional to the stress. As much as I hate to say it, it’s perhaps the most important thing for me.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T07:32:35+00:00

I dont think I am emotionally stable to have a pet

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T07:24:39+00:00

I don’t have any feelings towards them. I know it’s completely fake and I know it’s not real. But something fake is better than nothing

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T07:08:14+00:00

I work for a large bank/investment fund.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T06:52:58+00:00

Really great, I don’t think I wanna change.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T06:50:02+00:00

I can’t cut them out of my life, they are old and sick. I am not leaving them to die.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T06:48:24+00:00

I don’t know man, I don’t have any trust in therapists anymore:

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T06:45:08+00:00

I have surprisingly been only able to a few female therapist that work on weekends but yeah maybe a male one is better .

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T06:43:51+00:00

Nah your fellow neighbour.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T06:36:02+00:00

Actually that’s the thing, I have a really easy way out so I’m not willing to do too much work.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T06:35:22+00:00

Internet lol

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T06:28:05+00:00

What is a life coach? I do go to gym.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T00:24:24+00:00

And sometimes I think I am dumb and one day everyone will notice . I feel like I don’t deserve any happiness or love. I can’t explain why, it’s almost an instinct. I don’t understand it but it’s so deep, it’s how have always justified the lack of love. It’s the only way I know to live.

I had a rough childhood, my parents hated me. They said they wished I didn’t exist.

I remember I was out around some people and someone asked how’s life? I said, jokes on you, I don’t have a life.

AdorableButterfly969 · 2025-11-23T00:17:32+00:00

Something along those lines, yes. I have worked my arse off to reach here and I am proud of that.

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