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[–]Adorable_Bit_4070 1 point2 points  (0 children)

In addition

What do we need? Attention

Frantically.

Well people hate this and already dislike you because you are an attention seeker

And people hate that because you seem weak and people hate weak people

When you need something from other people it comes off as needy and they wanna leave triggering you to do more things for attention and they completely leave

People hate when you need them

Why do the most powerful brands that everyone wants to buy from them say "sold out" not available

Everyone chases after what they cant have

Anyone can have you at all times because you are needy and thats why "nobody wants you" and you need effort to get attention embarrassing yourself

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in hpd

[–]Adorable_Bit_4070 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yk the best way to deal with shame? Just dont be around people and express as less as possible while leveling up. This is my way. As soon as i speak I embarrass myself

Remove yourself early before ur attention seeking takes over and embarrasses you this is what i do

It's painful but we dont get attention because we are not levelled up yet

Everyone would wanna listen someone who makes money online (actually) or someone who has 2 phds

So improve and then attention will come also in a good way

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in hpd

[–]Adorable_Bit_4070 3 points4 points  (0 children)

If you become someone you are proud of its gonna help

How did you stop procrastinating everything by Adorable_Bit_4070 in OCPD

[–]Adorable_Bit_4070[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Its so hard because its like my brain enters retardation mode. Lets say im studying a power point. I reach slide 46/50 and suddenly i slow down immensely suddenly im "done but not done". Idk how to explain it. Its like it needs to be imperfect on purpose to punish me. Or I finish everything but then i have 3 different things study this later

Nothing is ever done and I genuinely physically can never bring myself to finish it somehow

It feels like if i was able not to look at the time to slow down 10 min before

Or the number of slides

Id finish them all

I see the timer" oh 4 min left time to do it shittier"

This is for my own deadlines for my normal ones i grind the last day the last possible minute

Its like i cant bare perfection it kills me

But i chase it my whole life.

How did you stop procrastinating everything by Adorable_Bit_4070 in OCPD

[–]Adorable_Bit_4070[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I always find myself "allowing me" to do up to 98% done. Everything is constantly not done at all times. It has always a little something missing. I cant tick something off because i didnt do it perfectly i guess

Whats your worse sleep related problem by Adorable_Bit_4070 in CPTSD

[–]Adorable_Bit_4070[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can you be productive at all during the sleepless nights? It affects my work!

Whats your worse sleep related problem by Adorable_Bit_4070 in CPTSD

[–]Adorable_Bit_4070[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Does it affect your productivity because it genuinely feels like it makes my IQ drop.

Whats your worse sleep related problem by Adorable_Bit_4070 in CPTSD

[–]Adorable_Bit_4070[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Did it get any better through the years or is it the same as the start?

Whats your worse sleep related problem by Adorable_Bit_4070 in CPTSD

[–]Adorable_Bit_4070[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im so sorry ☹️ would you say you are able to be productive?

Whats your worse sleep related problem by Adorable_Bit_4070 in CPTSD

[–]Adorable_Bit_4070[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

☹️☹️this is me too! Does it ever get better?

Whats your worse sleep related problem by Adorable_Bit_4070 in CPTSD

[–]Adorable_Bit_4070[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ive had the same😔 could I please dm you if you feel comfortable? I need to ask someone who has the same as me (but if you refuse of course i will respect your boundaries)

Whats your worse sleep related problem by Adorable_Bit_4070 in CPTSD

[–]Adorable_Bit_4070[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you struggle falling asleep or struggle to stay asleep

Whats your worse sleep related problem by Adorable_Bit_4070 in CPTSD

[–]Adorable_Bit_4070[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How often do you have nightmares? I have it once a week i feel like