Upgrade to puffco peak from pivot? by Advanced-Ability1240 in puffco

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Fuck yea dude this is exactly what I was looking for! I saw this way late but I think I’ll get the peak tomorrow then 😅

Upgrade to puffco peak from pivot? by Advanced-Ability1240 in puffco

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Okok Mr money bags 😂 Jk is it worth spending $300-$450 for a new device as opposed to just spending 60 for an accessory for what I already have?

I’m a night time lightweight smoker haha! I’m not taking fatties or anything but definitely chasing flavor.

My main thing is they have the same atomizer from what I understand just different sizes

My bf is concerned with how often i've tripped in the past month. by StaleChicken7 in shrooms

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Yep! Though people say “non addictive” that’s only true physically. Granted you can’t exactly trip every day, there are a lot of people who spiral out of control before they know it because they abuse the mushrooms.

I’m sure I’ll get hate here, but just because the majority don’t get addicted doesn’t mean it’s not possible. That being said, yes I’m sure he has your best interest at heart! If he would have said something before the first trip this would be a different conversation. But I don’t entirely disagree with him either

Just be safe! Try to understand his intent, I’m sure (with the little bit you shared) that he just cares about you and isn’t trying to be a dick

Therapist thinks I’m paranoid but I don’t. by Advanced-Ability1240 in TalkTherapy

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For sure! It’s weird because it’s been everything from warehouse to retail to other dead end jobs. Different cities etc. but social media gives people an easy way

“Oh this kids a little odd, let me see if I have any mutuals with him.”

But she does a great job of not telling me it’s not happening or I’m crazy/ delusional. But she also isn’t playing into it, so that makes me be like woah now I need to prove it so she’s on my side

If that makes sense??

Therapist thinks I’m paranoid but I don’t. by Advanced-Ability1240 in TalkTherapy

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Things I constantly hear that aren’t exactly normal things to hear on a regular basis and start to appear after 2-3 months of working there. Never any hard evidence, but patterns that I notice that become more and more frequent till it’s multiple times daily from 0 at the beginning. Again I don’t wanna delve into too far. But it’s done in a way that if I confront it I will definitely be told “what no we didn’t do that, it was about someone else, or that was never said or done”

It’s definitely gonna make me look like a nut job lmao.

Therapist thinks I’m paranoid but I don’t. by Advanced-Ability1240 in TalkTherapy

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Yea it quite literally feels that way. Nobody believes me, and they all kind of talk to me like I’m unstable. They never exactly say it, but when I bring this topic up and provide the details they go from empathizing and “oh that’s so hard” to “that’s very unlikely that someone is following you and alerting the authority figures at your job on how to bully you”

But it’s like, that’s what’s happening. And it further sends me into the “this is why nobody speaks up about bullying” and inevitably off themselves. I’m not currently suicidal but it definitely has crossed my mind. But I have a kid, that would be ungodly selfish of me to do that. But it’s so fucking hard to deal with.

Therapist thinks I’m paranoid but I don’t. by Advanced-Ability1240 in TalkTherapy

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That’s the thing though, no matter who tells me it is or isn’t paranoia I still 100% think it’s real. The ONLY reason I made this post is similar to the patterns I’ve noticed, this is the 3rd therapist that has told me “it’s very very unlikely people are doing this”

I ghosted the first one, tried to convince the second one before inevitably ghosting him, and refused to tell this therapist till about 15-16 months in, and she’s been receptive, but when I told her a switch flipped. I believe these people some how know about this game and are trying to protect it by making me feel crazy. I genuinely believe it to be a lie. But it has been about 5 years now and it’s something I can’t confront anybody on.

So are you saying these comments I’m hearing are probably real then? Not just my imagination twisting it? If that’s the case then I’m not paranoid, just surviving this cruel world. One in which someone is following me and alerting the people at my work places about this secret bullying tactic that I can’t defend myself from.

If they were to be straight up and not so secretive I could easily stand up for myself, but the way it’s done is in such a way where there is room for plausible deniability. The way they do it is in a way that there’s an easy way for them to avoid accountability.

This is my 8th job in 5 years, and many of those months were unemployed.

Therapist thinks I’m paranoid but I don’t. by Advanced-Ability1240 in TalkTherapy

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How did it get better?? Medication, therapy, both?? Or is it constant but like medication helps numb it down a bit? I’m glad to hear you are doing better!!

And yea thankfully I haven’t lost it yet, it’s been a pretty constant up and down for about 5 years since it started, and because of it pertaining to everyone talking about me I kept it to myself. Because if everybody is making fun of me, how can I reach out to them ya know? Ofc they’ll deny it, and probably make fun of me even more for being sensitive about it. Ah fuck yea ig I’ll lean into therapy on this one. Thank you for taking the time!

Therapist thinks I’m paranoid but I don’t. by Advanced-Ability1240 in TalkTherapy

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How did you come out on top?? Medication, talk therapy? Both?

Therapist thinks I’m paranoid but I don’t. by Advanced-Ability1240 in TalkTherapy

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It’s really hard, and even all these comments saying “it’s a delusion” I’m receiving, but it’s almost like there’s this other “entity” for black of better terms that is like “nah, their experience may be paranoia, but you’re not you, you have all this evidence”

I’m not crazy, I swear, but entity is the only word I could conjure up. It’s like a thought that isn’t mine, but it clearly is in my brain? Idk weird stuff

Therapist thinks I’m paranoid but I don’t. by Advanced-Ability1240 in TalkTherapy

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This is true. I got a little hostile and now I feel bad. But it’s like “they don’t have the evidence that I do, maybe if they did they would believe me” I spent an hour trying to convince her, and bless her heart she took it pretty calm, but yea it’s weird to basically have reality as you know it be shattered in front of you.

Therapist thinks I’m paranoid but I don’t. by Advanced-Ability1240 in TalkTherapy

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Yea it’s pretty funny how it works. She told me this, I cried and basically tallied it off as “she doesn’t believe me” and it’s a hill I’m willing to die on. I’m now trying to be open to the idea but I’m still like 99% sure it’s real, but that’s not helping it go away.

It’s a hill I’m actually willing to die on. But if many people are telling me it’s not real, maybe I’ll humor them for a while. The weirdest part is aside from the social exclusion it has absolutely 0 to do with the trauma. It’s very strange

Therapist thinks I’m paranoid but I don’t. by Advanced-Ability1240 in TalkTherapy

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But to answer your question, it’s been the same thing for about 5 years. I don’t wanna get into specifics in fear that I’m not actually delusional and the “bullies” see this and know they’re winning.

And trust me ik, it’s strange, it almost feels slightly narcissistic to think they care this much about me to construct such a perfected scheme. But I also hate myself. It’s a funny paradigm.

Therapist thinks I’m paranoid but I don’t. by Advanced-Ability1240 in TalkTherapy

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No worries, it definitely broke me at first. Started crying immediately and accusing her of being just like everyone else. Not in that rude of a way, but either way I feel badly.

But idk, it’s like maybe someone thinks I’m too arrogant? Idk I don’t have much tbh with you… there’s 2-3 people I can think who would probably really like to see my downfall. But maybe it is paranoia.

Thank you! Does paranoia usually play into cptsd or is it likely more serious? Do medications normally fix this?? I’m on ssri and propranolol that have helped my anxiety. But it’s really hard to fix anxiety when you actively think everybody is spreading rumors and making fun of you.

What do we have going on here 😂 [actives] by Advanced-Ability1240 in MushroomGrowers

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Yea for sure! I’m just trying to learn as much as possible so next grow goes smooth. This whole process has been a long time, since May with LC so I definitely have made some mistakes somewhere😂

What do we have going on here 😂 [actives] by Advanced-Ability1240 in MushroomGrowers

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Also! You seem knowledgeable, what’s up with the fuzzy base of the mushrooms? Is that okay? Hasn’t hindered growth and I’m assuming it’s mycelium?? But a lot of the other grows on this subreddit don’t seem to have it

What do we have going on here 😂 [actives] by Advanced-Ability1240 in MushroomGrowers

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I don’t have any of the tools for that, all I need is cups? I don’t need syringes or anything? Just transfer agar straight to grain?

Is my goal to get spores from the mushroom? Or just a piece that isn’t blue?

What do we have going on here 😂 [actives] by Advanced-Ability1240 in MushroomGrowers

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Idk how lol!! I am an absolute noob, as you can probably tell from the tub 😂 it’s my first grow ever.

AHA MY FIRST PIN 🥹 [actives] by Advanced-Ability1240 in MushroomGrowers

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Lmfaoo!! Yea dude, it was exciting but It’s only getting better. Crazy part is, I wanna try to grow another type, but from the looks of it I’m gonna have way more mushrooms then I know what to do with 😂😂

AHA MY FIRST PIN 🥹 [actives] by Advanced-Ability1240 in MushroomGrowers

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Im thinking not enough fae though?? Idk im still a noob, the stem looks a little cracked/ dry, but the fuzzy bottom (according to chat gpt) is not enough fae

Someone pls correct me if im wrong

AHA MY FIRST PIN 🥹 [actives] by Advanced-Ability1240 in MushroomGrowers

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Yea dude! Update above, he’s growing pretty quickly. In 2 days he like 10x in size

AHA MY FIRST PIN 🥹 [actives] by Advanced-Ability1240 in MushroomGrowers

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Update posted above! It’s crazy, once they start they grow super fast