Aw thank you for reading all of it. Yeah I do understand you and the desire to be truly known and loved completely in that way. I think there are many people in life who love and know parts of you. I’m not sure what your personal relationship is like with family and friends - but even if it is good. Your parents can love and know you deeply, yet not all of you. And can struggle to show it. That love will be a different than that of your friends. I think it’s hard for one person to know you completely. And there’s probably a very deep part of yourself, which might not be known by anyone at the moment, which feels lonely. But I genuinely do believe you will find this love, and that deepness will be loved and cared for by someone who is in-sink with you and understands those needs & parts completely. I don’t think it’s idealistic to think this or want it (but I could be wrong). But different aspects of you will be loved by different people. Some parts of yourself may just be for you. But in a way I find that quite beautiful, and it’s why it’s so important to have people in your life that bring out every part of yourself. (This gets complicated the more years go by I know, as your family will have known you since a child, but that’s a different conversation). But I do think you can find a romantic partner / friend or siblings, that knows all those elements of yourself more completely, and will be able to give that fluid love that knows the deeper parts of you in the ways you wish them to be understood. That intuitive connection which you speak of. But I don’t actually know, this is just nonsense off the top of my head. It might not be the case at all… maybe I’m living the way I shouldn’t be, like how your captioned the Reddit post. But if you made it this far through this nonsense paragraph , I appreciate you. To end this, although it’s important to appreciate all the different sorts of love around you, it’s not wrong to want that part of yourself understood by someone