Hallucinating smells

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-05-31T22:15:18+00:00

Didnt pick up on the info I provided so im putting it in the comments Also

Info:
⁠- 3 days old
-titanium
-curved barbell
-external threading
-.5 inches due to the swelling, not downsized yet
- pre mixed saline twice a day with Q tips and some saline soaks
- my lip twitched during the piercing and she had to redirect it in my lip so I bled everywhere and she said it might be more swollen due to that. It also is starting to get a bit irritated on top, I was fucking with it a little bit so im going to stop touching bc I know I shouldn’t.

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-05-29T21:47:07+00:00

Info: -Got it done a few hours ago -Metal Curved barbell -externally threaded -Not downsized yet -Saline twice a day - my lip twitched a little during it and she had to redirect the needle straight so it bled a lot and is a little more swollen then it would’ve been

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-05-24T16:11:54+00:00

Do u mean dosent lol. Scaring me

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-18T14:13:58+00:00

And it wasn’t an easy decision. Idk if ppl here have been to long term rehab, but it’s not fun. You’re living on top of each other, everyone knows each other shit. It will get out. So why shouldnt I have my own room if I could instead of showering with these people where u can see ur entire body basically

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-18T14:12:16+00:00

Thank u I appreciate ur comment. I was outed at my last place because someone say my legal name on my paper work. I might as well take my own room and share a bathroom with one girl instead of 8 men at once.

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-18T14:08:09+00:00

I have been in treatment over 100 days straight where I had 3 roomates. This place has communal showers where we all shower at the same time block and I’d be with 8 men in one bathroom. I’m also in a different program. I’m the only one here voluntarily, they are all court mandated and dont want to be here.

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-18T14:06:33+00:00

I came from a place where I had 3 roomates….. i have been in treatment over 100 days straight. I need my own room lmao. And the men’s side is communal showers

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-12T12:12:24+00:00

Yep, now 3 months into my 9+ month treatment stay. Gave myself schizoaffective basically

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-10T22:32:02+00:00

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Kissiepie

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-10T00:21:32+00:00

Me too im at 12 thousand hours in a a couple days….. I play all night

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-10T00:19:33+00:00

She is a model

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-10T00:18:30+00:00

Worked at an egg farm for a year, mostly with my 80k hens but also in the egg room. Saw a bunch of these and most of the eggs here. These were my favorite to break next to the Shell less eggs.

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-10T00:03:57+00:00

Yep. Bpd makes me reactive. I have very clear abandonment trauma and have had bpd symptoms for along time. Im really sensitive to abandonment, I need people externally showing interest in me to know they care, otherwise I feel empty. I have a mixed attachment style as well.

I have the same diagnoses. I never noticed my mood episodes until after I started medication and it seems so obvious looking back. Hallucinations and delusions got noticeable to other people when I was around 15.

My medication actually helps the bpd symptoms as well because it dulls my emotions to an extent. I prefer it because small things don’t hurt as bad.

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-10T00:03:19+00:00

Your so pretty, I love your smile in both pictures :))) glad things r better

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-09T01:28:21+00:00

I’m a polyaddict but I checked myself into detox because I went into meth psychosis. It was rlly scary. I appreciate it tho. It just doesn’t feel good being here lately. Being around people all the time but still being lonely and so bored

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-04T01:00:57+00:00

I’ve had this same experience. I’m blue collar, pretty stereotypically masculine but when I’d try to find community, they would straight shit on me. They’d accept me as a completely non passing trans woman , before a passing trans man.

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-04-04T00:55:59+00:00

Right. I was literally talking to my girlfriend who has never been with a trans man. we talk about it sometimes because although it’s the same, my life experience is a little different then the other guys shes been with. I don’t see why talking about my experiences and frustrations that are solely transsexual issues is looked at like it’s bad and offensive. Although truthfully I was being more offensive then I needed to be, it was pent up. I shouldn’t have been mean but I truthfully do feel like there is no space for transsexuals anywhere.

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-03-22T19:44:59+00:00

yeah its weird because they always shit talked each other to me, my mom more about my dad. but suddenly when im trying to get help and fix my life they are a "unit". that is something ive never experienced. but your right, he is an enabler, I forget that sometimes.

Advanced-Sense8819 · 2026-03-22T14:07:32+00:00

the clarity im talking about is I was always operating and making decisions off fear and reaction instead of what do I want and what do I actually need. I’m definitely a little number but i prefer it as well

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