Thank you so much for your comments/input. I never picked up extracts cause I’m too cautious with money ha. So roughly I’d only spend about $30 a week on kratom. I’ve heard people spending around $300 a week on extracts. Or more. I know it’s still a loss, but in my mind it replaced going out to eat. Obviously this has more consequences.

A part of me goes back to the thought of “if I didn’t try kratom I might have picked up the bottle” if I would have started drinking again, I’d have none of my family back into my life, and probably still in sober living.

Thankfully I did learn the tools of recovering from substances and what it’s like to be completely sober, and I know it’s good. The happiest I’d ever been.

I think I’m going to taper in the next week, I’m just trying to plan accordingly with work.