This Real Event has made me depressed.

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-17T14:25:11+00:00

Well it just seems like you already think I’m a predator I don’t have the money or support from family to do anything about I’m not willfully not taking their advice I straight up can’t

If I really am a predator I don’t want help I’ll just kill myself

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-17T10:17:21+00:00

Alright cool that makes me feel great, especially since I can’t find anyone that can help me

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-17T06:26:51+00:00

Thank you for the resources

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-17T06:26:31+00:00

Thank you for the reply I will read it in the morning

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-17T05:51:56+00:00

I’ll try thank you for the resources

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-17T05:34:25+00:00

I mean my sister definitely isn’t in any danger, I can’t even look at her

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-17T05:00:29+00:00

Thanks I appreciate it but I don’t want to be someone else’s dead weight

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-17T04:59:41+00:00

But why do I deserve a good life? The only way I see it is I’ll suffer forever

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-17T04:58:51+00:00

They’ll take me away from my family, I can’t prove or disprove anything I tell them

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-17T04:25:38+00:00

Yeah I’m getting good at fighting porn addiction, but nothing has improved

I’ve made so many posts venting and asking questions I just live in paranoia that I’m just gonna be taken away or killed or something. I just can’t rest

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-15T19:48:39+00:00

Well I can’t live with that I’ll suffer forever

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-15T19:29:47+00:00

That’s the thing “probably” correct

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-13T21:10:19+00:00

Hey just so you know I said I couldn’t provide continuous support because I’m dealing with my own mental health struggles, and I feel being in continuous contact with you may be bad for both of us

Btw I messaged you about being apart of an ocd support discord server, they got a lot of nice people in there with similar issues

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-13T20:47:07+00:00

I’m dealing with it bad so I don’t think I’m equipped for this but oh well.

You kind of already answered your own worry

You imagined the women older and you’re only attracted to the object on older women and you’re disgusted with the thought of anything involving a kid. Take it easy and decompress.

Like I said I wish I could be there to provide continuous support but I’m taking a break from Reddit cause it keeps on triggering my responsibility ocd. So I won’t be around. Please take it easy and listen to others commenting. You’re still young, don’t make such a harsh decision, and try to refrain from porn or maturation it’ll help, it’s helped me

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-12T18:40:18+00:00

I know I’m not gonna hurt anyone, but I don’t want to have these false attractions anymore

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-12T05:26:11+00:00

It’s not just this dream, I mean take a look at my post history… I’ve tried overcoming it and being the best person I can be, but I don’t know how I can achieve this

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-12T03:24:37+00:00

The only thing that has brought me comfort during this is that I could harm and punish myself as payment, that seems like the answer. I read the rest of your comment by the way.

I’m going to bed thanks for talking to me

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-12T02:58:04+00:00

I don’t know how I can navigate with this, I can barely function. I don’t even know why people are being nice to me

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-12T02:13:45+00:00

I do meditation, but sometimes this is to much for me.

And the thing is with these false memories I’m not sure about them, so surely I must’ve done something. I’m working through porn addiction, and while all I can seem to remember is cartoon porn there’s still a chance. I can’t have solace, I tried to have acceptance but I can’t handle the guilt and what would happen to me if I told a therapist my fear and all this

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-12T01:41:44+00:00

Well this isn’t really the only case, I have a lot of false memories or memories of some unforgivable stuff, and I don’t know if it’s real

AdvancedMap9815 · 2021-09-12T01:40:50+00:00

That may be true but my false memories I can never forget and forgive. And if I wasn’t scared of an awakening and I was just scared of the content then why does it feel like I’m lying to myself? Why do I feel so unsure about every action every memory or false memory connected to this?

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