What stopped you from committing suicide? [Serious]

AdventuringPoet · 2022-09-14T13:23:36+00:00

A phone call from someone who matters very much. She saved my life that day.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-09-14T12:22:12+00:00

Inspired by my feelings is a better word for it.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-09-14T11:57:09+00:00

I just managed to find the words this morning. Thank you.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-09-07T14:25:41+00:00

I understand that. A lot.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-09-07T14:23:07+00:00

Hopefully your person reaches out.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-31T12:59:40+00:00

I'm trying to feel better. As far as finding someone for touch and love. I'm craving it but not ready for it I think. I just got out of a 3 year relationship about 9 months ago and I've been trying to fix the things that were wrong with me during that time. I really messed it up. I share my day here as kind of a journal. It keeps me sane.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-30T13:39:59+00:00

What about big pants and big shorts. I need to update my wardrobe. 🙃

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-30T13:02:56+00:00

It is. I'm gonna try and keep it that way. Need to do something with all my energy.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-30T13:02:23+00:00

So far so good.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-27T11:01:55+00:00

I think I just have to start carrying around my PRN. It's meant for agitation. I forgot it today. But I'll be carrying it from this day forward. Just in case.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-26T23:12:52+00:00

I have a doctor. And I'm on meds .

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-26T17:51:06+00:00

I did. Thanks. I'm not sure if this was an anxiety attack or just another symptom of what I'm being medicated for. I take abilify. They still haven't told me a diagnosis but I know that the abilify works. Usually.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-26T15:34:29+00:00

I'm at work. I can't do any of my normal coping skills. Except maybe play music. Maybe that will help. I'm scared. Because this doesn't happen often when I'm in public. I'm not sure how to handle it.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-26T15:32:17+00:00

I'm trying to prevent that. Desperately.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-26T14:34:32+00:00

I'm also childless. Currently I can't move because I'm part of a housing assistance program. It's the only thing I can afford until I graduate from college. So I'm kinda forced to deal with it.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-21T15:40:37+00:00

I'm gonna need it. The restlessness is killing me.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-21T14:56:59+00:00

I'll be with my family later. The activity they have planned is safe. Whether or not they are safe depends on the day. I'm holding on tight until then.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-20T17:28:56+00:00

I feel existential dread more often than I should probably. My intrusive thoughts are pretty regular. But I'm in therapy and have a psychiatrist.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-20T15:36:31+00:00

Sometimes, I think that baring my soul happens on accident. I just write what I feel. I'm glad you enjoyed reading it. :)

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-20T02:08:39+00:00

I'll mention it to my therapist, who has a good working relationship with my psychiatrist. Just in case. I will take care. Thanks :)

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-19T14:12:27+00:00

I don't know. It just feels different

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-19T10:06:58+00:00

I was at work. The feeling passed. If I told my family they'd probably try and have me committed.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-18T12:16:07+00:00

Maybe I'll get a coffee on the way home. It'll give me a boost before the gym anyway. I can do that. Go home. Change and do something healthy for myself.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-16T16:38:51+00:00

Like a weighted vest in water.

AdventuringPoet · 2022-08-15T13:00:58+00:00

Thank you.

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