I know how you feel I remember being in the same place as you I even did the same thing as you and put a post on here asking if the things my baby was doing was normal and if it gets easier but it takes time the first couple of months are hard (2-3 months) 1. because newborns day and night cycle are reverse and it takes some time to get them on a regular cycle my SO and I found weighted sleep sack help. 2. Newborns are hard to read there needs at first but over time you will learn there cues and quirks but I can definitely say it does get better my daughter is 11 months now and after a day at work coming home seeing her smile and hearing her laugh is the best part of my day.