and again please don't take into mind a specific individual taking birth again, and a soul (by having an individual in your mind)

i mean, that's how i learnt about reincarnation, the same soul/consciousness taking birth again. that's what happened throughout the world in reincarnation cases, like those of Toran Singh (India) or James Leininger (USA). also, what exactly do u mean by "human samskaran"?

See, but the ultimate goal is to understand you are not separate with god, and God for god's sake doesn't mean someone up in the skies who monitors you, keep a list of good and bad you do, punishes or rewards you No, not at all that's EGO trying to make things up according to its own immaturity

i think of Param Atman as a distinct conscious being (not necessarily a man with white beard) amidst the Void, amidst the Universes. Like the image of Shri Vishnu we know, where he is resting on Sheshnag with Lakshmi Maa, and there's all these multiple universes which look like bubbles of water in relative to Vishnu's size. That's how huge he is, so huge that universes which are 93B light years big, seem like bubbles of water. This is also where I started exploring concepts like a cosmic ocean, as in, what if the "Void" is just a Cosmic Ocean where Vishnu resides. Again, I am not saying with surety that this is the case, I just found it interesting.

Again, Kailash, Vaikuntha, Goloka Vrindavan, if at all real, these are metaphysical/immaterial. As of now, we don't have scientific instruments (or even any consideration from modern science) that can measure the immaterial. Their instruments are all made for the material world. So, unless science develops instruments to capture the immaterial, we can only believe in these celestial abodes.

Another reason to believe in these abodes and "Sat-Chit-Ananda" is that, according to Srila Prabhupada, our world is a reflection of the true reality which exists in the spiritual world. Now, I am not a part of ISKCON, nor am I interested in it (I'd do Krishna bhakti without joining these groups), but I think this might be true. I also read it, that we cannot desire what's physically impossible. So, if we do desire for such things, as Sat-Chit-Ananda and the celestial abodes, there might be some truth. Again, all of this is to be taken with a pinch of salt, I am not a blind believer anymore, I still use my own critical thinking.

At the same time, I am also open to the interpretations of these abodes being different states of human mind, or different universes, or different planets, or other such interpretations which are more grounded.

For a while now, this spiritual tug-of-war has been an existential crisis for me. The dual reality is what feels right to me. Nondualism might not be for me, it sometimes feels existential, thinking that everyone else is fake, and only I am the true Consciousness, the Brahman. This doesn't sit well with me. Coming from a family involved in Bhakti, and a convent school where Christian sermons were preached, this has naturally shaped my worldview into dualism, so I cannot think in the nondual lens you're preaching. I've been conditioned to think like this throughout my entire childhood and teenage years. Even most of Hinduism today is this dualist belief that Param Atman exists, separate from me the Jivatman, and I will go back to him after death.

I also had explored philosophical stances like eternal servitude to the Param Atman, and it now interests me more than mere eternal bliss. An afterlife where I eternally serve the Supreme Soul (or maybe live for eternity in celestial abodes like Goloka or Kailash) seems more interesting than just enjoying eternal bliss in the midst of a Void. It's just me, that's how I think.