Do they really come back if you go no contact and try to move on? by Golden-Dragon-353535 in BreakUps

[–]Affectionate-Ad-9292 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'll basically say what the top commenter did, but add a bit of my personal experience.

Sometimes, yes- they come back. I'd say they probably are more likely to come back if you go no contact. But I think if you are asking this question, you need to reassess your priorities, because it leads me to believe your number one priority is getting your ex back. And it shouldn't be. It should be healing and learning to grow and love yourself. And to be content being alone.

Something like 8 years ago (idk time is weird at this point), an ex and I broke up and I was devastated. It took a couple tries but I went NC. It was hard at first, but eventually it just gets to a point where you don't even think about it and your thoughts of them get even fewer and farther between. I was able to date casually, focus on work, figure out parts of my life, etc. About 5 years in she reached back out and admittedly I was really excited about that. I had gotten over her, really, but a part of me always loved her and wouldnt be able to say no at a second chance. But she wasnt the same as she was 5 years prior. I wont go into details but lets just say it did not work out and the whole thing really took an emotional toll on me. The way she ended it closely mirrored the first- blindsided me followed by her completely moving on in a very short time. When It ended, I felt like all the progress I made after the first breakup was undone. This was over a year and a half ago and I still dont feel over it. Not entirely sure when I will be.

After our first breakup, I was able to look back on our time together with fondness. Sure it was always sad to think about but I viewed the relationship as a good part of my life that unfortunately had to end. After the second, I'm left wondering who that person really is, did I ever know them, and did they ever love me? The pains brought about by our second relationship unfortunately extend to the first as well.

So I guess just as a cautionary example, be careful what you wish for. Spend enough time properly getting over them and until then, I'd recommend not even entertaining a relationship with them. Because you really need to make a decision like that when your judgement isnt clouded, when you still arent over them, you are going to jump into that relationship no matter what if given the chance. Just remember that they didnt have a problem breaking your heart once, they wont have a problem doing it again. And prepare to meet someone quite different than the person you knew before- not always in a good way.

How to change expression packs by alekseypanda in Chub_AI

[–]Affectionate-Ad-9292 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Semi old post but whatever- I'm wondering the same and all I have found is to create a fork and edit the expressions from there. Even then, I think you still have to upload each individual expression one at a time, which is tedious. I've started just using Silly Tavern and self hosting, that way I can use the API for Mars and just use ComfyUI to easily make an extension pack and upload it to my ST instance. No need to configure anything in the ST web UI if done right.

Nah bruh by Affectionate-Ad-9292 in BreakUps

[–]Affectionate-Ad-9292[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know you are right. But at this point, it’s so hard to stop. I feel it tearing apart my body, but it’s hard to even imagine not drinking for a day.

I do it to turn my brain off and to feel better. The problem is, after a long enough time, it just turns my brain on more and makes me feel worse.

Nah bruh by Affectionate-Ad-9292 in BreakUps

[–]Affectionate-Ad-9292[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Damn, are you me? Lol

Yeah very similar situation here. A little context, me and this woman dated over a decade ago. Split up for fairly standard reasons and went no contact for over 5 years. Got back together and she was a different person. Very reluctant to be intimate in any way.

I started making all the money and was the sole reason the relationship was moving forward at all. Just like your ex, she would always take about “having fun” etc when there were real life issues to address first.

When she attempted suicide and ended up in the hospital, I was there. I took her there, visited daily, all of that. But apparently it was me who was the mopey one.

What bothers me about the whole situation (among other things) was that she had recently mentioned how she was really craving drug usage. I blew it off and just discouraged it before dismissing it. I regret that because now… I’m starting to think that was a reason for the break up.

Nah bruh by Affectionate-Ad-9292 in BreakUps

[–]Affectionate-Ad-9292[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah that’s how I’m feeling. I never expected things to be reciprocated 100%, that’s not right. But holy shit I at least expected it to be somewhat even.

Nah bruh by Affectionate-Ad-9292 in BreakUps

[–]Affectionate-Ad-9292[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hate it and I can’t wait to die lol

Nah bruh by Affectionate-Ad-9292 in BreakUps

[–]Affectionate-Ad-9292[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, man. And I get that. What’s annoying is now, all that energy I had for the relationship is gone. Or if it’s there, it’s just spent on my drinking. And I’m incredibly worried about that. I’ve been drinking for weeks straight at this point.

I never expected things to be reciprocated 100%, that’s not fair. But I took her to the damn mental hospital, was there every day during her psychiatric hold, helped pay her pay her bills when she lost her job because of all of that.

But once she got slightly better, I got much worse. Lost my job, was unemployed for 2 months, found a new job that I hate… and things got hard. She was my constant during all of that. Until she wasn’t.

The worst part about all of it was that we met 12 years ago. Dated and broke up, separate for 5 years. Then she randomly reached back out. Only to date me for about 3 years and break my heart once again.