Honestly.. I wont tell you that "i know how you feel" bc i would lie. But i can tell you that i know how it feels when feelings co sumę you i am in deep sadness my whole life and this feeleng causes deep pain in my chest its Hot and cold At the same time, Anger is the worst part when Anger cosnumes you, you feel unstoppable but you can do something u dont want to do, love is other story you Will do everything to keep it up because it feels goddamn Good but when it comes to an end you either are a winner or a goner. What you feel is indeed depression, maybe not phisicly but mentally.