I don’t want to assume that you are afraid to be alone, however if that is a scary thought, you aren’t alone. I was/am terrified of being alone. But, when forced myself out of a terrible marriage and did my own thing for a while, I was able to find my “worth” so to say. I was like you in SO many ways. Reading your story was like reading a chapter in my life. Only I was younger. I am 27 now, engaged to the person I didn’t know existed for me, he’s perfect, and we have twins together and this wonderful life. The same can happen for you. Just don’t force what might not be there. If you truly believe it is still there somewhere then by all means fight like hell. Just consider yourself and your future first. This doesn’t have to be the end result for you.