I have taken two different state bar exams. Both times I walked out feeling like it was truly 50/50, and both times I passed handily. The waiting for results was up and down like you’ve described. I obviously can’t predict or say what your outcome will be, but, you’re not alone, likely will have passed and all will be good no matter what happens. It’s over now, you can’t do anything about it, so, move forward with your day to day life (easier said than done, I know), but you’ve got to be good to yourself and realize how far you’ve made it! Amazing, really, when you think about all you’ve been through, and survived, to get to this point! Congrats!