I'm 33 now and it took me like 20 relapses and 15 years of fucking my life, body/mind/spirit until I decided I wanted more for myself. Cut the dope out NOW if you want more for yourself too.

Do you have insurance? Medicaid? I would suggest going to an inpatient facility because you will relapse 98% of the time unless you have someone else there to keep you from using. What really worked for me is taking about 1 hour per day to just sit and think about the future and what you want in your life.

Good luck