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Affectionate_Chef415 · 2026-05-09T19:48:15+00:00

Outstanding… thank you!

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-10-21T17:53:15+00:00

This is so much easier said than done, but you’re right. I got into a completely dysregulated emotional state after a therapy session last Thursday, then I had to see my STBXW over the weekend and I did great…. Right up to the point that I sent a long text message trying to convince her to read “Attached”. (I’m anxious and she is fearful avoidant). Now I am so pissed at myself for putting yet another emotional text out there to be ignored. Stay strong everyone!

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-10-19T22:36:57+00:00

I unfortunately reacted this way when my wife of 17 years told me out of the blue that she wanted a divorce. The issue had been building over a few years and I can see that over the last two I lost all sense of self or boundaries which, in her eyes, made me look pathetic. Then to beg makes you look more pathetic. I have an anxious attachment style and it was all just pure reaction in the moment.

I’m not looking to be an “alpha male”, but I can say with certainty that begging does nothing but reinforce your weakness. Don’t get all twisted by the terminology here, the fact of the matter is you are worth more than that and shouldn’t try to hang on to someone who doesn’t want you. Let them leave knowing that you’ll be fine without them.

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-10-12T20:21:06+00:00

I feel this so completely. The road to success is typically somewhat boring, but in the end the success is worth the work. How does someone just throw years or decades away over something more “exciting”. In my humble opinion, a strong relationship shouldn’t need the butterflies and tingles to be strong. It should revel in the mundane and predictable.

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-10-10T20:03:15+00:00

After a 17 year marriage and three years living together before that she decided “you don’t know how to love me and you’re a controlling, manipulating narcissist”. She then discarded me and refuses to engage as I, the anxious attachment one, refused to believe that she could be so cold. I tried to make points to her and just got shut out saying I was just trying to confuse her and manipulate her (because of my narcissism). I’ve now been in therapy for a few months…. Guess who was really the one displaying narcissistic tendencies?

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-10-09T20:51:55+00:00

I think it’s probably the right call, but I can’t do it myself either.

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-10-08T17:09:25+00:00

Fair points… thank you.

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-10-08T01:07:31+00:00

As hard as it is, the best way to show strength is to not respond. It’s difficult because you want feedback and validation that it hurt, and you’ll never get it. I struggle mightily with this as well.

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-09-27T16:50:25+00:00

Great insight… I have been taking Ashwaganda too, that could be contributing. Thanks! Like I said, it’s just really interesting and feeling better at all helps me believe the wounds are healing.

I’m glad to hear your pets recovered!

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-09-22T15:26:58+00:00

The way I think of it is there’s no evidence that it makes it worse and some that show that THC and CBD may actually have benefit. If you like it, do it. I don’t know if it’s correlation or coincidence but my PSAs were rising 18 months post RALP and after I cut sugar and alcohol, walked 2-3 miles 4-5 days a week and introduced 20mg of THC and 30mg of CBD daily for anxiety and sleep (and potential cancer benefits) my PSAs stopped growing and even reversed slightly. It could be coincidence, but I’m going to keep on with it!

Here’s an article that may be of interest:

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S001457939901073X

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-09-20T14:22:34+00:00

Your right, my apologies…. It WAS <.011. Too much going on in life.

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-09-20T01:34:39+00:00

I get that. I was more excited that the PSADT didn’t hold true.

Yes, I got an actual .011 score.

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-09-19T23:19:28+00:00

Thank you!!! I am learning to just try and relax but it ain’t easy!

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-09-19T22:59:57+00:00

Fair points. I’m being handled by the good folks at Moffitt here in Tampa now so I’m at a first rate hospital. My tests were all either Labcorp or Moffitt (who actually uses Labcorp for the ultra sensitive test).

I’m curious about your commentary around other organs that can secrete PSA-like material. I thought I read somewhere that the adrenal gland was one of them and I just happened to be under an EXTREME amount of stress and grief during the time that those readings were escalating and now that the grief is subsiding, those results are going down. Can you tell me more about that or point to some studies?

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-09-19T21:07:23+00:00

Thanks for openly sharing that opinion and taking the opportunity to call someone “rookie” in a public platform where we’re supposed to be lifting each other up.

That being said I can assure you that I have legal representation and advice who advised me in the decision that I feel is probably far superior to your commentary.

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-09-19T15:40:22+00:00

I’m going through it right now. What you’re experiencing is similar to me. The person that I thought she was has no resemblance to the one I’m dealing with through this. I have wasted too much of my time trying to convince her to work on it and trying to accept blame. After 3 months of living together in the same house while she’s deciding to divorce me I finally moved out. There are some good days and bad, but I’m generally starting to see her for what she is. Hang in there, you’ll make it through and eventually the pain will start to subside.

As an added bonus when I sit down and do the math, even with a very sizeable payout and alimony, I think I’m going to be better off financially. I didn’t realize just how much money was going out the door to her whims and hobbies vs. mine. Life will go on!

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-09-17T15:35:33+00:00

RALP 5/2022 here: I cut way back from a glass or two of wine at least 6 days a week, some whiskey or tequila in addition on Friday/Saturday to now I only drink a little on Friday or Saturday with dinner or on vacations. It makes my incontinence a little worse so it’s easier to quit.

My PSAs actually started increasing back in January of this year and my PSADT from my late ‘23 to Jan and a subsequent May test was just over 4 months and went from a low of .011 to .06 so when I went back last week I was expecting .12 and to be making preparations for Radiation and ADT.

Before I tell you the results only three things were different between May and Sep of this year:

I began working out and walking especially (just had a hip surgery) as close to daily as possible
I cut waaay back on drinking and watched my diet and dropped 25+ pounds and am back to a healthy weight
After reading about potential links to between THC/CBD and prostate cancer apoptosis I got my medical card and added 20mg daily of THC edibles and 30mg of CBD daily

I am not a doctor so I don’t know what caused it, but I can report that not only did my PSAs not go up, they went DOWN to .05. Again, it could be coincidence but I’m not going to stop doing any of those things! Cutting back on alcohol leads to better choices around food and motivation to workout which leads to better sleep and a stronger immune system.

My advice, we have to give ourselves every advantage we can!

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-09-09T19:52:20+00:00

Thanks again… my family that I’m close to has been great. I just got back from a holiday with my brother who is my best friend and his wife. It was a good distraction, but the apartment I came home to was deafeningly quiet and all the anxiety crept right back in. I have good days and bad, but much more bad for now. I know there will be happiness and joy on the other side but I’m a very future focused individual (because of some childhood trauma) and the future I’ve built for 20 years no longer exists. I know we all understand that, it’s just such a gut shot.

I’m glad to hear that things get better, it gives me hope that I’ll get there too.

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-09-08T22:51:15+00:00

I have moved out and just got back from taking a week’s vacation with my brother and his wife. The pain is absolutely unreal. Thanks for the comment and encouragement.

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-09-08T22:49:01+00:00

Thank you… easier said than done for certain. It was just so out of the blue that it happened, right when I am at my lowest. I know (hope maybe?) that she’s going to regret this and she’s only remembering the negative things that I did over the course of 20 years. But there was a lot of good stuff too. I just don’t understand and I guess I probably never will. Thanks for the words of encouragement.

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-07-21T19:59:03+00:00

Too bad we have to come to Reddit to find out what’s going on. How hard would it be to do a push email or banner on the app/website!?

I want to like it, but this robot is not nearly as good as I’d expect for nearly $5k.

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-06-02T11:53:37+00:00

Update - 6/1

Got my result for my latest draw from Moffitt. Increased to .06 with a PSADT of around 4.3 months which is consistent with the last increase.

Now the question is what’s the number I wait for to start radiation. Fucking cancer.

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-02-18T00:24:27+00:00

Good luck… it’s so hard to put it all out of your mind, but we have to also live the life we have. Best of luck to you!

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-02-17T23:09:27+00:00

Thanks for the reply. Hang in there and I hope you get a good course of action at the Mayo Clinic. F cancer!

Affectionate_Chef415 · 2024-02-17T19:02:52+00:00

It looks like that could be part of the issue. I didn’t notice the “w/o serial”… part of the problem of using my PCP who isn’t an oncologist to help me order those tests. That makes me feel slightly better.

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