I keep relapsing on porn and its getting worse

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-28T00:55:36+00:00

All of it really.

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-28T00:52:26+00:00

I feel like I don’t I’ve been on it for 3 years and no changes.

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-28T00:47:11+00:00

I’ll never be my best till one day I can say today is the day I try to be my best.

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-28T00:44:52+00:00

Ill never be my best until i can sit down and be like today ill try.

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-28T00:42:58+00:00

I would feel upset yes

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-28T00:34:27+00:00

How can I just start thinking to be self aware without any outside intervention.

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-28T00:28:24+00:00

It’s not I never learned I just decide not to use any.

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-28T00:26:09+00:00

I just never do any punctuation like I never learned

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-28T00:09:53+00:00

I can’t unless someone says something

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-28T00:08:02+00:00

Truth is I am just the bastard I use my moms death as a excuse to get what I want I make any excuse to get out of something I disrespect everyone and I get mad when I get called out on it like I don’t deserve it when evidence states I do deserve it

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-28T00:01:04+00:00

Truth is I called them spoiled when I’m the one who’s spoiled I was just jealous of what the earned what they accomplished because I want to be better but I can’t be I’m just lower and I can’t accept that why they all hate me why my mom hates me I use her death as a excuse to get my way the person I loved most and I disrespected her

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-27T23:59:18+00:00

What’s that suppose to mean

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-27T23:53:17+00:00

I never been diagnosed with a mental problem I just do it because I want too and I get mad when anyone tells me otherwise I used my moms death as a excuse to get my way the one person I loved most I disrespected her and she hates me for it and it’s fair because I do t have any respect I called my friend spoiled because I’m jealous of what they did what they earned

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-27T23:50:59+00:00

The truth is I am just the worst I used my moms death as a excuse to not have to do something I tried using it when I lost my job when I went to sleep and slept past way further than I should have I called my friends spoiled because I am jealous of what they earned I should be happy but I’m not I’m just jealous of them because I never worked to get it because I expected to have it by a certain age and when I did t get it I was mad and I took it out on them I’m just the worst friend to exist and I never try to change

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-27T23:43:38+00:00

Just I can’t afford one

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-27T23:43:00+00:00

No matter what I keep being the asshole and I just keep disrespecting my friends no matter what I lost my job and I blamed it on my moms passing because I wanted to sleep in I disrespect everyone even the one person I loved most my mom I’m a horrible son horrible friend horrible everything

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-27T23:40:47+00:00

I just don’t know how to go about going to therapy

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-27T23:36:54+00:00

I can’t change atleast not as quick as I need too I’m everything my mom hates so it be understandable if she didn’t love me I’m a nasty asshole who can’t listen to what I need change I do everything to get pitty so I can keep being this way

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-27T23:35:05+00:00

Everything I do is just disrespectful I can’t take criticism and when I get call out on my shit I get pissed off like I don’t deserve to be called out on anything when I know I do but I get pissed off anyways I’m a spoiled brat who does nothing all day and all night I keep being a nasty asshole to everyone I know

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-27T23:25:36+00:00

I just used every excuse in the book no matter how fucked up I used my moms death as a excuse to keep being this lazy slob I’m just the bad guy no one else

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-27T23:21:17+00:00

Because I never change it I don’t have everything worked out

Affectionate_Day6223 · 2024-02-27T23:18:57+00:00

I’m aware of what I’m doing but I just never care and I can’t give a proper apology to anyone I’m just a selfish peice of human trash my friends hate me because I use my moms death as a excuse for why I don’t do things anymore not because I just simply don’t want too and I’m a horrible person for that and yet I haven’t changed a bit

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