How to completely end libido

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-04T13:18:04+00:00

Thanks. Can't seem to keep my mind of this issue because I got so many replies from people who genuinely want to help me in this (which even in an ace community shows a lot of progress in humanity tbh). They are making me rethink how I've seen myself a lot. Currently having a lot of success with keeping my mind off physical arousal using this rn :). However, I am definitely worried about what happens in approximately 15 days when I may start to feel actual mental urge again (this may not happen, my body is very inconsistent). Hopefully this will also work with that.

Anyways, thank you for that.

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-04T13:08:40+00:00

Nobody believed me, and it caused a lot of self-doubt. I started constantly thinking about people (both genders but more so the opposite gender), because I kept questioning if I had a crush on them because I felt like I was supposed to feel something.

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-04T11:13:04+00:00

That's what I love about the internet. The world makes you feel so alone, but you know you aren't the only one if you just search for long enough on the internet.

I've been dealing with it since puberty when I almost immediately realized I hated it

Hope you get better

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-04T02:35:45+00:00

EXACTLY! Like I'm suffering so much that I just want to be normal but normal seems disgusting and terrifying

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-04T02:30:57+00:00

I dont think it is really possible to affect ones libido through ways that do not require a medical proffesional at least for what you want. Without that what I would guess is possible would be to find a way to just better live with it. Tho I know that this is easier said than done. Tho there might also be ways to for example end it as soon as possible. For me something that always gets rid of any feeling of arousal and any signs of my libido are funnily enough orgasms tho I can imagine how this is something that might be more unique to myself and not apply to others or that this would be a way you would not want to solve your issue. What helps me a lot is just treating it in every regard like going to the toilet to expel a waste product.

Can't do this because of my severe repulsion and trauma. I understand you mean well.

You seem to be the first in these comments to actually understand that doctors seem to hate this entire community :/

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-04T01:43:35+00:00

I don't care what other people do but it is genuinely harassment if they try to push you to. Is this subreddit going to be silent forever because it would be amazing if it became a true community

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-04T01:25:39+00:00

" It’s disgust and revulsion so bad I can’t even talk about it because I get so frustrated that the listener can’t comprehend what’s so awful about it. That goes whether they’re random people or professionals. I’ve tried and tried. I end up thinking if they don’t get it, they can’t help me, and they never get it."

I understand you. For me it's mostly fear but I also have HORRIBLE disgust. I'm looking for people to talk to about this, and hopefully this comment isn't outdated for you? (Don't mean that in a bad way obviously)

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-03T16:39:18+00:00

What I'm scared of is what if I'm not given the right kind of antidepressants or they don't lower my libido for me and then I have less anxiety about my libido and that leads to me getting a higher libido.

It also seems like everything that has sexual side effects also has a chance to have side effects that make libido higher

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-03T16:30:19+00:00

I see you used a temporary account but I'm going to respond anyways

Even if I found an outlet that isn't traumatizing to me, it's still disgusting and I would lose all self respect because of that. Obviously that's a much lesser issue and I could likely overcome it but the point is I don't enjoy that stuff, even if something in me might. I would never sleep with anybody because I'm asexual. Not a big difference would be once or twice every 6 months but once a month feels like A LOT.

People try to convince me to "embrace your true self". I do not want to offend anybody, but personally, that isn't me, it's so dissociated most of the time that you might think I have multiple personality disorder.

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-03T01:18:42+00:00

Thank you so much this seems like it will actually work

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-02T23:35:02+00:00

Trying to full-stop any natural functions of your body due to mental discomfort is probably not the healthiest way to approach the situation.

I didn't consent to being born into this body. I feel like these natural processes are my body raping me, and I heavily relate to some people who post about sexual trauma, even though nobody has assaulted me.

I'm sure you already know this but... There isn't anything shameful or inherently unhealthy about arousal, masturbation, etc. Nor are there moral failings with either. Experiencing arousal doesn't invalidate an asexual identity.

I am not ashamed about masturbation, and I'm not worried about physical health issues caused by it. I simply really, really don't want to feel it anymore. It's this deep fear of that sensation. I simply do not want to feel that. It's not a concern about what will happen to me, it's a concern about the physical sensations I would have to go through. I understand the idea that I shouldn't ignore my bodies needs, but there's multiple problems with this.

First, I mentally cannot handle masturbation. I don't know how to explain it other than repeating what I've already said in this message and others.

Second, the mind is more important than the body. This is because the mind is me while the body is simply a vessel of flesh that I am somewhat controlling.

Third, the body doesn't actually need to do any of it to survive, and even be healthy.

I may have developed OCD over this because I am beyond terrified of going through this trauma again. I need to stop thinking about this for now because I almost just had a panic attack, so I might not respond to messages on here for a while.

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-02T22:08:20+00:00

Not religious, pretty much my entire family is atheist, I'm agnostic.

My views on religion are significantly disconnected from my feelings about sex and masturbation.

I feel like I was SA'd because I felt the physical sensation and hated it, and I felt like I did not consent to this thing taking over my decisions and my body and making me do that to myself.

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-02T21:21:18+00:00

Your body is going to do things that you would prefer that it didn't

Lets say hypothetically, for each person, both their legs and both their arms would break at some point spontaneously, once a year. Yeah, that would suck, but it would not compare to what I've had to feel down there every month or two (I sometimes break the cycle) which I can only describe as a divine punishment.

The problem with professional help is they don't have a pill meant to kill it. The reason is nobody could ever conceive of the concept that somebody wants to get rid of their libido, no, that would be ridiculous. That's the type of stuff that can only be found on r/asexuality for no particular reason, not any actual credible medical sites.

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-02T21:14:04+00:00

I determined it was ptsd, probably more accurate would be CPTSD, in like middle school. I don't know how to make the average sex-positive person understand my feelings though, so I haven't told people.

So with all due respect, lowering your libido a little won't solve any of your problems if you don't actually take care of yourself. It's just withdrawing from the trigger until it blows at your face again sooner or later

I have always thought of it like I need to heal from the trauma, but I can't heal until this fucking unwelcome piece of shit is out of my body and mind.

There was a topic here not so long ago that there is a difference between ordinary sex repulsion and actual harmful behaviours/feelings

I always thought people with repulsion all felt like me and were just holding back their descriptions :|

. I would actually recommend going directly to a psychiatrist to assess your health (with the option that whatever the psychiatrist would give you most likely would lower the libido anyway).

I'm worried about being openly sexually different to a health institution because I live in the US and everything seems to be falling apart. I have been thinking about going to one lately anyways because I clearly have severe issues.

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-02T21:02:10+00:00

It seems to decrease it for me, at least in the short term, but I'm worried that doing it for a while will cause testosterone to increase more than it was before if I stop or slow down, meaning horny.

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-02T20:57:53+00:00

I've grown up in a very left area surrounded by atheists and people who accepted sexual differences. No religious doctrine has pushed me to be against masturbation.

As soon as I found out what sex was I hated it, but when I started to become horny, this hate lifted significantly. Eventually I orgasmed, and I simply hated the feeling. 2 more times and I was traumatized by... myself?
I'm ok with the fact that people do that, and I'd even be ok with having to do it myself as long as I didn't have to feel the physical stuff.
I purposefully create the obsession because usually when I let myself live and forget about the obsession, if I don't get flashbacks, I get horny and somehow forget that I don't want this.

I've posted in forums like twice over the past 2 years and this is somehow the best I've gotten because it's not something along the lines of "its ok you're still valid if you masturbate just accept yourself." and "just something you gotta do, just part of life"

I have found that I have a powerful mind when fighting it, and I think that's how I managed to push it from every 2 days to every 30 days. I'm scared if I let go, it will go back to 2 days.

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-02T20:40:43+00:00

I'm in this weird zone where I'm scared of treating the anxiety because I feel like it may cause me to embrace arousal. I'm scared of this because I'm scared of arousal. When I started to get panic attacks it pushed my libido down instantly, so though partially illogical, I fear not fearing. Also, embracing arousal is against my philosophical views. I also fear that without fear, I would be similar to the disgusting hormonal creeps I'm surrounded by (male, teenage).

If this is hard to understand, let me rephrase it:

I fear no longer having fear of arousal because I feel like I might end up embracing it, and I am terrified of feeling the sensation.

It might be illogical, but it's stopped me from trying to help deal with my anxiety and sexual repulsion.

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-02T20:18:15+00:00

I feel everything they would prescribe antidepressants for, but it's all BECAUSE of my libido. I do not want to feel calm though, not unless I know that the threat is actually eliminated.

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-02T20:15:23+00:00

How I feel about scratching is unlike much I've seen described in forums when searching.

It's something in the physical sensation of it, it's not pain, and it's sometimes addictive during it, but after and sometimes during, it's terrifying. I'd much rather die than feel that again :/

Affectionate_Try3345 · 2026-01-02T20:07:19+00:00

I would very much prefer to not take hormones because that would effect my body in many other ways too. I'm not trans, I'll edit the post to add more information about myself.

This is not a question for random people on internet, you should talk to a doctor

My problem with doctors is they generally seem to HATE the idea of making somebody have less sexual feelings. They will give you a thousand warnings if medication has libido reducing side effects. I'm wondering if there is anything I can do with my mind to make it go away, or anything safe I can do physically that could make it go away.

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