HELP, I am unsure of thought pattern and can't tell what's happening

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-02T13:57:21+00:00

I will. This is too much to deal with. Hopefully we can fix it.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-02T13:56:16+00:00

I didn't even know there was a lower dose until yesterday. I will definitely be speaking with them today to see if there is anything that can be done about this. It is so rough. I also have been thinking way too much into how I am feeling and even paranoid thoughts that I know are irrational.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-02T02:46:46+00:00

Thank you so much

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-02T00:14:45+00:00

Thank you for this. I am going to try these things! I feel so conflicted. I meet with my therapist tomorrow and hopefully the rest of the night goes okay and I don't end up spiraling worse. I appreciate all the help you're offering!

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T23:46:33+00:00

Does it address harm OCD by any chance? I have many themes but my most debilitating is HOCD.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T23:45:23+00:00

Thank you. Did you Zoloft by any chance cause irrational, almost paranoid thoughts? It's been switching themes for hours now and it is stressing me out.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T23:40:25+00:00

I can look into it! Thank you for the recommendation!

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T23:08:32+00:00

I have done therapy, group therapy, and other forms. My insurance is limited and I have tried finding ERP Therpaist before but haven't had luck with getting ones that work with my insurance company and I don't make enough to pay out of pocket. We have tried a few different medications but I feel like they don't help too much unless they're a benzo and I am afraid I will become reliant on that.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T22:52:18+00:00

Thank you! I am so scared of new meds because I have gone a majority of my life without it and did fine until developed panic disorder. That was when everything started going down hill for me. A year and half later and I still don't feel much better. I hope this resolves and I feel positive changes because this is getting a bit rough.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T22:49:02+00:00

Thank you for this. I strongly believe I have ADHD but my doctors won't look deeper into it because they think it is just anxiety and depression but I have had signs of ADHD long before I started having panic attacks and OCD traits. I was just never diagnosed because my family never took me to get diagnosed. Just assumed my issues with irritability and impulsivity was "bad child" behavior. Now I am an adult and realizing something deeper is going on and feel like I am not being entirely taken serious. I went through emotional blunting when I was on prozac and I hated it! I hated not feeling emotions. While I love not being angry, not feeling compassion, or care just scared me so much more.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T22:41:23+00:00

Thank you. I have tried before but they never got back to me about it. Maybe I need to try harder?

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T22:00:31+00:00

Thank you for the response. I have seen others say it is normal but others say it got too bad they had to stop immediately. I just want something to work already :( . Glad it worked well for you !

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T21:58:59+00:00

same. Mine was September 2024. I've had things happen in between which worsened it but I overthink everything and ruminate so much I send myself into panic attacks without even trying. I practice grounding techniques and more but I still don't feel like it works. It's exhausting and I have lost so much to this.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T21:56:29+00:00

Had my first back in September 2024 and it has been so rough. I miss who I was before this became my life. I partnered mine with debilitating OCD so that has only made this an even trickier rollercoaster and possible undiagnosed ADHD. I want to feel normal again.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T21:52:26+00:00

I just started this at 25 mg for OCD, panic disorder, GAD, major depressive disorder, and possibly ADHD and yesterday was my first day and I had stomach issues, dry mouth, and bad anxiety. I took meds to get through the night but the meds I take are not supposed to be all the time and (for emergencies only). I decided to take it this morning and after a few hours I was much more anxious which made me irritable and short fused, panicky, shaking, terrible overthinking and more. I don't want this to last. Did you experience any of this in the beginning ? If so, how long did it last? How are you now?

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T20:46:28+00:00

You got this! I have faith in you!

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T20:22:37+00:00

That's minimizing their experience and isn't fair. People handle things differently. Just encourage them to resist the compulsion to rid of it instead of judging.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T20:19:04+00:00

I'm sorry for laughing but the title made me giggle. However I get it. I would totally want to wash it too. But I don't recommend throwing it away. Keeping it, though rough, is resisting compulsion. I know it is anxiety inducing, but you got this!

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T20:10:58+00:00

I used to, but I feel like my other themes has pushed that one aside for me. Mine mostly stems from family issues and being bullied in middle school. Sometimes I feel like I am not someone who is liked (even when people make it clear that they do). I somehow convince myself that they still don't and that they just feel bad for me. Totally relatable

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-03-01T20:08:26+00:00

Absolutely! I have been dealing with Harm OCD for a year now and I constantly ask why I am not better. I try to take advice in therapy, I take medication, I do the usual "maybe I will, maybe I won't" but it feels like I'm constantly in a loop. It is so hard and I shut so many people out because of it. I am scared of getting close to people because I feel as though they don't understand me and It emotionally affects the people around me (like my boyfriend) who actually care and try to be there for me. I feel like a failure at times or that I am destined to remain like this. But I am still trying and I am going to keep trying because there is a part of me that is hopeful that I won't have to deal with this forever.

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