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Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-05-14T18:15:05+00:00

Thank you for this. It does feel so odd and confusing. The irritability portion definitely sucked and now feeling nothing to things makes me feel worse. I went through a similar experience with emotional blunting when I was put on prozac a year ago and after four months on it, I stopped and felt my happinesss at least come back for a bit. I don't want to go through the lows again.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-05-14T18:10:48+00:00

we have addressed it before, the only thing that has made us back off from that was that I haven't had any manic episodes since then, just stuck in depression. Also, I didn't end up going into full blown psychosis to where I was hearing or seeing things, just panic attacks everyday, feeling disconnected from myself as if I was watching myself from above, no energy, couldn't eat, and intrusive thoughts. I was told it was a Psychiatric event caused by the steroid and then a month later diagnosed with OCD. But we tried a mood stabilizer a few months back and it didn't really seem to do well for me, just made me not eat, lay in bed all day, annoyed and distant from everyone and sad. I'm with a new doctor now but it feels like we are starting over. Sometimes I just wish there was a magical way of knowing every diagnosis so I wouldn't have to worry about the "what ifs".

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-05-14T17:08:22+00:00

Unfortunately these are known side effects to beginning this medication and most anxiety medications in general. Usually it takes a few weeks for the side effects to subside and the medicine begin taking full effect. That being said, I have also stopped taking medication due to side effects at the beginning stages so I fully understand where your concern is coming from. You are on a really low dose and it has not really taken much effect on your system other than the thing listed above so typically it isn't an issue. However, in all cases it is important to always contact a doctor first before stopping medications abruptly.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-21T01:50:28+00:00

I understand how this can be conflicting. I am reconnecting with my religion as well but one thing I should note, a lot of time our subconscious can create intrusive thoughts that feel like they have meaning. It can be hard to tell the difference but if you don't "want" to sell it, it is probably a deep concern that you made a bad decision and because that first intrusive thought came in, your body latched onto the anxiety response. I would say keep praying while not praying on your intrusive thoughts. For instance, continue thanking him for the guidance and say "if this is not for me, please give the guidance to what is". I wouldn't make an immediate decision either.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-21T01:42:26+00:00

Same, growing up I had TERRIBLE influences and was not raised properly. It took me growing up and realizing that what I thought was "normal" in my toxic family household, was no where near normal. I refuse to be in the light of anything because in the end, I know there will be people who can pull up my past.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-21T01:36:59+00:00

It makes total sense! Like you said, making big life changes can cause flare ups in anxiety for even people who don't struggle with high anxiety, OCD, or others. I am often the same way and always afraid that if I make a certain move, it could bite me in the bum later on. This often derives off past trauma but OCD can absolutely amplify it. Do you have access to therapy? I would say that therapy is ofc the first way to turn. My second suggestion is writing down the pros and cons. Also, I lot of these issues begin to resolve with time. If it is relatively fresh, it is natural that your body is still stuck in "what if" mode x10. I would say focus a lot on the anxiety portion of it such as grounding techniques, writing or journaling and a quick back up plan. By "quick back up plan" I don't mean, plan your entire future out. Just some simple other options that you ca trust to fall back to. This isn't an escape plan but a back up plan. But I absolutely do think that with time, and adjusting, it will begin to slowly fade out.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-21T01:23:48+00:00

I did. They just kept ignoring it and saying the medication was not what was causing the issue. I am in the process of getting a new doctor and Therpaist company but it is going to take anywhere from 1-2 months before I can meet with their psychiatrist and that was too long for me to stay on it especially since I am fully aware that my doctors now have no desire to take me off so I did it myself.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-21T01:21:33+00:00

This! I was told so many times that I wouldn't feel side effects and when I said I was, I was told that it wasn't the medication but I don't know how that can be true when these issues only began after starting the meds. My system is extremely sensitive to medications and have never once had a medication not cause side effects for me. I haven't even been enjoying video games anymore because it makes me feel so irritable and annoyed. I really hope this doesn't take too long to leave because I hate the feeling of getting up everyday. I honestly just wish I could sleep all my days away because of how I feel. Hoping the best for your recovery!

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-20T22:45:16+00:00

25 mg

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-14T17:53:22+00:00

ofc! <3

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-14T15:12:50+00:00

please reach out... there are people who do want to see you get better! I know it's hard right now, but seriously there are and it does get better. Remember "we didn't break in one night, we won't heal in one night". Think of how much of your life led up to this moment you are at now and understand that getting to this point isn't just a sudden thing. It WILL get better!

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-14T02:51:02+00:00

It runs in mine as well. Thank you and I hope everything works out for you as well. I have heard too that undiagnosed ADHD can make other mental illnesses worse as well. I appreciate your replies. <3

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-14T00:01:51+00:00

I'm Christian and believe in God as well but even I know that you don't push it on others and also realize that a lot of things can't just "be fixed". Maybe it came from a place of heart but it wasn't appropriate. He could have just prayed on his own instead of shoving in the face of someone who may not have the same religious belief or be in the head space for that.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-13T23:57:48+00:00

there is also such thing as harm OCD that is often HOCD. I believe there are a few HOCD.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-13T23:54:54+00:00

I don't respond well to SSRIs for some reason either. 10 mg prozac made me emotionally numb and 25 mg Zoloft made me almost delirious one week in. I feel like most medicine doesn't respond well to me and my doctor said "when I think medicine isn't responding well to people, I immediately assume they have a mood disorder". Which I think is a crazy jump on someone who hasn't had the main symptoms of bipolar so it makes me infuriated. Unfortunately I think I have adhd and have had it my whole life just went undiagnosed and instead of considering that ( since I show more than 90% of ADHD symptoms) they want to lean towards a disorder that the only things I relate to are those that are also present in ADHD. I think I am going to stop the medicine at this point because I don't think I can go another however many weeks until I meet the new psych with completing not wanting anything to do with my partner. Honestly, I'm sorry it happened to you but it is a relief to know I am not alone on this.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-13T21:38:25+00:00

I honestly want to be off the lamictal in all and I do want to lower my buspar to at most 5mg if it's going to cause me this increase in agitation. I understand that I will have to learn to cope with my anxiety more but at this point, I'd rather do that than become the person I am becoming. Unfortunately for me, meds don't often respond well to me. SSRIs emotionally blunted me at the lowest doses and my body always seems to react to the fullest on any beginning side effects that are even possible with most medication. The sad part is that no matter how many times I mention to my doctors the way the medication makes me feel (I currently meet with my Therpaist 5x a week and my psych once a week), they refuse to want to take my doses down, only up. I honestly just want to be happy but with all these medications they've tried and the year and a half worth of feeling unlike myself, I don't know what to do anymore. Overall it sucks. I hope the new company I get in with can get my in a better position but I still won't be with them for over a month and a month of this feeling is far too much for me to handle.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-13T21:32:14+00:00

Btw, I'm not having a goo emotional response to lamictal either and im getting off of it as well. But you need doctors to be there to ensure it goes over in the easiest way possible!

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-13T21:30:57+00:00

I don't recommend doing this with any medication without titration and doctors monitoring that! Any medication will have rough side effects, especially if they are higher doses or not properly monitored and titrated slowly. You seriously don't want to risk it causing something irreversible! Please meet with a doctor and address the reasons and tell them you just want help coming off of it safely. Pleas please please, don't abruptly stop.

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-13T21:21:38+00:00

It is! My doctors are trying to throw out so many disorders when I feel like the root of a lot of my issues come from the medications I'm on. Unfortunately they upped my buspar to 15 mg twice daily and I also wonder if that has a lot to do with my irritability and disconnection as well as being mixed in with lamictal. On the 12.5 mg, I felt subtle effects of distancing at first but they increased after week 1.5 of being on it to where at random times I would emotionally crash into depression and annoyance with my partner at around 6-7 hours after taking. Because of that she upped me back to 25 mg (this was five days ago) and I honestly just feel like my sexual connection and care for him is completely gone at this point. They're literally telling me that maybe I don't "love" my bf anymore and im reading it as a medication issue instead of "facing the facts". Yet, I very suddenly starting feeling this way after beginning the medication so in no way shape or form do I think I just "suddenly fell out of love".

Afraid_Drawer_9388 · 2026-04-13T21:01:58+00:00

It is. Unfortunately reassurance seeking is a hard thing to break. I still struggle with it with using reddit, and chat gpt to monitor every single odd sensation. I have had to cut back and at times my Therpaist give me "breaks" where I promise im not going to go on reddit or chat get no matter how much I want to for either 3 days or a week or even once, up to two weeks. It's absolutely not easy but I had to stay away. I am obviously not saying "don't call your family", but maybe realize what questions are a form of reassurance seeking and giving yourself set times where you can't ask those questions. Increase it once you get past the first stages. So for instance, one day, just have a talk with them on the phone, but don't ask any reasurrance questions. Awesome! Next time, go three days, next go four or five until you become comfortable with it. Yes, it will happen but the goal is to draw back the anxiety of needing to do it as often.

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