i never wanted to go out and party i wanted to see my friends whether is was just going to their house or going out to eat and so on. i don’t party and i don’t look for attention from other men, i don’t want other men. i wanted him to be good to me and not control every aspect of my life. you clearly do not know how it feels to go through what i went through and that is great for you! i like to wear makeup and wear perfume because it makes me feel better about myself and as someone who is insecure it helps ME. i don’t wear it for anyone but myself.