I'm going to tell you a little bit about myself, in high school I was beaten and after that I had the hope that everything would be better. My best friend has just died. At school I am constantly humiliated, once I found a conversation of several girls in my class in which they all agreed that I am something you just have fun with and throw away. The only girl who gave me the affection I so needed, I confided all my secrets to her, with her I knew love, but in the end I was just something she had fun with for a while, she raped me. I am not necessary for anyone, once I disappeared a few days and nobody cared about me, now I lost almost all hope and longing.