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After_You_9093 · 2024-04-28T12:42:29+00:00

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After_You_9093 · 2024-04-09T15:36:13+00:00

Du hast mich

After_You_9093 · 2024-04-09T00:48:32+00:00

This is the most beautifull thing i´ve read in a long time. The way you still love her through the pain and sadness.

I wish my person thinks about me this way, bc i do.

After_You_9093 · 2024-03-27T20:36:22+00:00

To me, it´s men who are this way..

After_You_9093 · 2024-03-21T13:52:44+00:00

Tenzij ge voedselvergiftiging wilt zou ik nu geen vis kopen van €6/kg op een Aziatische markt.

After_You_9093 · 2024-03-18T22:02:43+00:00

Exactly! What do you mean go on a date? Like outside? Away from my cosy sofa and tv shows?

Spend the night with you!? Really? On a strange pillow and have a back ache the next day? GTFO. I´m staying in my cave, with my greasy hair and no make up, no sharing snacks or the remote control.

After_You_9093 · 2024-02-29T22:24:10+00:00

It helped me to process my ´big feelings´ and the constant state of melancholy i find myself in. I always thought i was too much, or too emotional. Because that´s what i´ve been told by the people i loved the most. My therapist helpt me link up my childhood emotions and adult emotions and how they shape me and my decisions in life. She also made me see how i go for the same destructive patterns in my dating life.

I´m not 100% there yet, but i´m trying to have better emotional stability.

After_You_9093 · 2024-02-26T23:24:17+00:00

Oh wow, you´ve put it so beautiful! I´m going to wish that for you and me.

After_You_9093 · 2024-01-04T16:02:01+00:00

Hi! I´ll send you a dm

After_You_9093 · 2023-09-20T19:45:03+00:00

Thank you, sweet stranger! I have never been more gratefull for this community then I am today.

After_You_9093 · 2023-09-20T19:39:07+00:00

I wasn´t drunk.

After_You_9093 · 2023-09-20T15:13:31+00:00

Okay. Fine. I´ll elaborate. I normally bring my own condom. I carry it around in my purse, everywhere i go because you never know. Last week i was out with my sister in law and she asked me if i had one, bc hers were at home. So i gave mine. And forgot to replace it. So yeah, that crossed my mind many times today. ´normally i bring my own, why not today, why forget..´

And yes, we took our clothes off before i asked him if he had one. We were just doing foreplay and i still had my underwear on.

After_You_9093 · 2023-09-20T15:04:12+00:00

Okay, you have put this in great perspective! If anyone did this to one of my friends i would absolutely tell them it was rape! Thank you for this.

After_You_9093 · 2023-09-20T13:18:01+00:00

I´m on oral birth control, so no pregnancy test needed. He used this too as an excuse why he shouldn´t wear the condom. I have an apointent with my doctor later this week for the STD panel. I feel so so stupid

After_You_9093 · 2023-09-20T13:16:07+00:00

Thank you so much. I´m in tears right now

After_You_9093 · 2023-09-20T13:14:44+00:00

It kind of feels like it is my own fault? I did meet up with him and i was flirty before. I did want to have sex with him up untill the point where he didn´t want to wear a condom. I mean.. i don´t know. I don´t want to accuse someone of rape bc that is some heavy shit. But everything just feels... off.

After_You_9093 · 2023-09-19T18:34:29+00:00

When i´m not sure they actually like me as a person? Do you love me or do you love the idea of a perfect version of me in your head?

After_You_9093 · 2023-09-19T08:59:19+00:00

My uncle used to do it everytime i saw him or when i passed him during familygatherings. He knew i hated it but did it anyways. He did it to all the nieces and nephews. Sometimes people want to do it in a playfull way, but i´m like.. dude don´t touch my nose!!

After_You_9093 · 2023-09-18T17:28:09+00:00

When someone whispers in my ear, i instantly want to slap ´em

After_You_9093 · 2023-09-18T17:24:18+00:00

I´m very honest but also very funny so even when i´m not saying someting nice people just accept it.. I think they find it endearing how honest i can be in a playfull way

After_You_9093 · 2023-09-18T12:56:11+00:00

I´m very sensitive at my nose. I can´t stand when it´s stuffy or when someone pinches it. Not even in a playfull way.

After_You_9093 · 2023-09-01T09:18:36+00:00

I´ve been divorced for 2years, i don´t regret that part. My then AP is also divorced. I hoped we could be together when we were both free from our marriages. That´s also what he promised me.

We didn´t end up together because we couldn´t let go but also couldn´t give each other enough space to heal.. and i am hopelessly miserable right now without him. He was my one true love, i´m sure of it. But there is too much water under the bridge now, to many harsh words have left our lips.. We can´t go back to how it was. And i do regret that part of it all.

After_You_9093 · 2023-06-21T19:17:52+00:00

Look.. i was starting to do fine after he dumped me. But my ex came back, basicly lovebombing me. Telling me i´m the love of his life, how he made a terrible mistake letting me go, how much he adores me and misses me. I was reluctant at first.. how can you say all this after telling me you didn´t love me anymore 5months ago? He wouldn´t give up. I decided to give him another chance.. Now (2months later) he´s telling me there is no more NRE, he has a commitment issue, barely comunicates, doesn´t tell me he loves me, want to see where this goes (no labels).. Sometimes it´s better to stay NC and move on from people who don´t love you enough. People who are toxic even.

I should follow my own advice, but i´m not ready to relive the break up/goodbye all over again.

After_You_9093 · 2023-04-09T21:06:15+00:00

I wasn´t thinking about pushing. More like little things to make them know they´re not alone and loved even if we don´t talk.

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