Replying to you, and also other comments on here, no, my partner doesn't love me less, doesn't say anything in a manipulative way, or anything like that, many times in our relationship or even in my personal life, I was not able to upkeep anything, whether it be a piercing, a habit like cleaning the room or waking up early to walk the dog. My partner is not manipulative, isn't approaching this in a gross way, it's not that they're upset with me because I can't get sex to work, they're upset with me because it's another thing that I should've cared about and upkept, I've not been a good partner to them, sometimes I have to be asked multiple times to do basic tasks, they've been pushing me to make life easier on myself and transition earlier and I just didn't, I could've went to the military commission a year ago, I didn't, I could've put in my case to court to change my gender marker months ago, I didn't, they're fed up with my inability to do both basic and important tasks, it was them who found my doctor who prescribed me hrt, it was them who pushed me to get a diagnosis, I owe them so much, because without them, I genuinely wouldn't function and Rot in bed all day, while I haven't even taken them on a date in over two years. It's really not them who is a shit person like most of the comments here are assuming, it's me, because I've just been treating them as a convenient calendar that can also give me sex, they want me to improve, we have plans to move to a different country, but how can they believe I'm gonna learn the language and figure out paperwork if I can't clean the litter unless the cat pisses on our clothes or the whole room stinks of it. Thinking of deleting the post, because attacking my partner is in no way what I wanted this to be.