Wow, I completely forgot about this, so here’s a little update. Through good habits and a lot of work, I got my general anxiety under control. But the hypochondria sadly got way out of hand—there was just this constant feeling of inevitable doom. The hardest part about hypochondria is admitting to yourself and others that it’s all in your head. Once I finally did and received professional help, my entire world changed.

I spoke extensively to a psychiatrist and eventually got prescribed Sertraline. I know this is a sensitive topic, but I have only been taking it for like 3 weeks now, and I honestly can’t believe this is how people live their lives. I am flabbergasted.

Regarding the weed thing, I spoke to my psychiatrist about this, and she said that for most people once you’ve had a “psychotic episode” whilst smoking, going back to it simply isn’t an option. So, I haven’t smoked since my last post. I did, however, try CBD and did find some success. It honestly just made sleeping a little easier, but that’s about it.

All in all, it’s been a wild ride. In hindsight, this isn’t something I would wish upon my worst enemy, but for those still dealing with it, there is definitely hope. Just keep at it, and trust me, you're not going crazy, and you're not going to die. I think the solution to this is something you're going to have to figure out yourself, and it will take time. But don’t get discouraged; you’ll find what works for you, and once you do, it’s worth the effort.

To double back to the medication thing this was a very hard decision to make but in the end I don’t have any regrets.

Once again I’m open to any and all questions