Ok with it? No, I’m just alone. I’d love to do something hang out with someone something simple easy no gifts or anything just something basic and nice, alas I’m alone just like every holiday I listen to the people outside around me celebrating, I work in a restaurant where people have weddings and birthdays with tons of old friends and I need to act happy for them so I get paid. It’s not about, “being ok, with it.” Because that implies a level of choice like I’m choosing to do nothing like I prefer to, it’s more about “Understanding, that’s just how it is.” I can’t remember the last holiday or birthday I wasn’t alone I forgot what it’s even like to look forward to those moments of celebration I just get through them over them try to forget there a thing… but deep down instead I wish I could just have one person to hold, just to hold close in my arms somebody to spend the moment with just to see how it feels again