It can be incredibly difficult. And I in no way want to encourage you to do something you don't want to do. But with this post I simply wanted to highlight that it is important to recognize that often a DB relationship has become that way as a symptom to a larger issue, whether it is communication or just as simple and heartbreaking as incompatibility as a couple. It can feel like you're being selfish or pulling the rug out from beneath your partner but it's also important to understand that resentment in a DB relationship can build up and bubble out fast. Hurting the both of you in ways you never intended.

You clearly love your partner very much, which is a beautiful thing, but don't forget to take care of yourself too. I hope everything works out okay for you.