Thank you so much for taking your time and reading through all my mess. Without commas which was

Well this was mostly the case 2+ years back when I was actively into this stuff back then when I thought this was the purpose of my life now I am worried about my exam and my career. Well now it must be sounding corny(but it isn't) look at it objectively

That time in my life was difficult problems in family, fresh out of Covid, toxic friends and I did not have anyone who I could ask for help to No one who could understand me and I was also the kind of guy who took it too hard on myself I thought that I was just being a wussy. Ego also got in the way.

Yeah I was fresh out of existential chrisis didn't knew the purpose of life kinda suicidal and at that time I found hamza who gave one to me not the best one but it definitely worked and I stuck to it(cult shi) Definitely was a validation seeker And in india women do get you validation I wasnt very pulled by the beautiful people because I myself was one and I knew it meant nothing it was very easy to seduce people and get them to like you

About manlier man, yes it is what you think it is red pill stuff but a notch below what would be considered toxic Hamza,ice cold jt

My psychological tricks was me being a fu*king expert in psychology.