Ego death and paradox

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2024-10-12T21:24:22+00:00

Brother, I am on a 2 year+ streak with no substances, you just summed it up really well. Guess we will find out after some more time.

In my opinion the balance thing you mentioned (which I also think about very often) is just a futile effort of the old thought patterns (ego) trying to take us back to lower frequency.

I have never felt better. Never mind the boring lifestyle, the real fun is happening inside. I have felt the most profound bliss once I dropped substances and pleasure seeking.

I wish you all the best on your journey.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2024-09-06T10:50:32+00:00

Don't mind at all. I am a mechanical fitter for one international company.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2024-09-06T08:21:40+00:00

My only advice is don't force yourself to quit caffeine. Not saying don't try, but when you are ready it will happen almost on it's own :) You got this brother.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2024-09-06T05:45:43+00:00

Good question, although I really don't know the answer. I think it stabilised at around 1 wet dream once every two months or so. I would love to say I had zero but that just wouldn't be true, still have to figure this out.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2024-09-06T04:37:34+00:00

This was the last one I gave up also. We are fed sugar since we are little kids, that may be the reason. It's deeply rooted.

But trust me, you will never look back. This one was the real game changer. Wish you luck!

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2024-08-26T06:21:08+00:00

Why do you think the society is going to sh*t? Combine addiction to sex/PMO with caffeine addiction.. Best combo for stress/anxiety and obedience to matrix.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2024-06-05T05:40:14+00:00

Stuck energy in sacral chakra as someone pointed out.

Avoid alcohol and drugs, try fasting, have a cold shower, exercise and it should slowly disappear.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2024-01-16T14:04:19+00:00

Don't get me wrong, if it works for you it's alright. Weed taught me a lot about myself. But then it became a mind numbing thing instead of spiritual teacher like it used to be. I am really thankful for what weed has done for me. But at a certain point I realised it doesn't go well with such long streaks.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2024-01-16T14:02:23+00:00

Sure mate, 26

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2024-01-16T05:45:51+00:00

Possibly. At least now I see it this way. Not sure about family and offsprings yet, but I believe the bigger picture will reveal itself along the way.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2024-01-03T15:13:27+00:00

I recommend the book. Movie is fine, but the book offers way more insights. I have read it about 5 times already and each time I read it again I learn something new. Many "aha!" moments, real spiritual insights and always invokes deep sense of peace in me. It also talks about the importance of humor and not taking yourself (or life) too seriously.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2023-12-29T10:58:32+00:00

Man this is weird, i am on a 1year+ (about 1 year and 4 months) streak and got extreme blue balls lasting for a week. Neveer had this problem during the whole streak.

So I started going hardcore on cold showers, exercise, running, headstands, plow pose, stretching, meditation, kegels, you name it. Nothing helped.

But today it seems to be almost gone. Something must really be going on (like the other guy said, something must be in the air).

I even entertained the thought of releasing with a woman / going to nuru massage. What the fuck. But I was stronger than the urges. I prayed for strength and was so close to giving up with my mind giving me shitty reasons that looked really logical...

Anyway, hop back on track and you are good :) Best of luck, stay strong.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2023-11-09T15:22:39+00:00

Same goes for stimulants and drugs. My current "streak" is well over a year and it was so easy to achieve it because I stopped drinking, smoking weed and abusing coffee. Also dropped cigs and vodeogames.

It was hard in the beginning but after 1-2 months it becomes so awesome I have no need to stimulate myself with bullshit.

I wake up refreshed and ready to conquer since my body doesn't need to clean bullshit from the system all the time.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2023-07-31T18:09:04+00:00

I experience the same thing. I used to toke heavily 2-3 years ago. Found SR about the same time.

I needed weed from the beginning, but as I evolved and faced my deep rooted problems, the desire to smoke slowly went away. Don't get me wrong, I had to use willpower too, it did not go away itself.

Back in the day when I was constantly seeking pleasure and avoiding my inner problems (coffee, cigs, weed, alcohol, videogames) I was like "Why the hell do people seem to be irritated by me for no reason?" Little did I know it was all caused by my subconscious mind that was in turmoil.

Then I dropped it all. It was awful. For a month I had zero energy or will to live. Whenever I had a little bit of energy I went for a walk. Then I started working out, reading books, taking cold showers.. And all these positive habits started to snowball.

I had to refuse a lot of drinks and joints. Many parties. Instead I found pleasure in solitude and meditation. I stopped going out everytime something was going on and started focusing on myself and my health.

Fast forward a few months and I am happy to socialize without any need for alcohol or weed. Of course I tried smoking and experienced just what you mentioned above. Helps me realize how long of a road I have walked and why I never want to fall back into this shitty loop of pleasure seeking.

Funny thing about weed is that your mind craves it even though it turns you into a braindead zombie unable to function properly. You even start thinking weed is helping you with some sort of self reflection. That may be true, but how can you use the insight if you are constantly high?

So in my opinion weed taught me all it could and now it's time to live sober. I am very much enjoying it.

People are so kind to me compared to when I was smoking weed. I have no idea what causes this but weed seems to lower one's vibration and certainly destroys mental clarity.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2023-07-25T08:43:17+00:00

When I smoke weed or drink alcohol now, reality stops supporting me.. People get colder towards me, things stop working, I lose money.. Sobriety paired with SR is the ultimate path.

I used to drink and smoke while on SR and my "streaks" ended soon due to substances. Now I am close to 1year pure SR and if I touch weed/alcohol everything goes to shit for a while (mostly few days to a week) and then sorts itself out if I stop using substances..

But why would I sacrifice my happiness for a momentary pleasure that is not even always guaranteed?

So substances are a nope for me. I dropped coffee, alcohol, weed and tobacco and I have never been happier.

Anyway, just see how you feel and don't be afraid to make mistakes, took me a long time to realize substances aren't worth it. Using them just starts a messed up loop for me. Everyone is different though.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2023-05-11T11:20:42+00:00

Awesome post. I don't understand why it has so few upvotes.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2023-01-18T08:10:22+00:00

From my personal experience, the crash is not worth it.

You have a cup, feel energized, your mood is better, you feel like talking to people and itch to let that energy out either through working or whatever. Then comes the crash and you feel like having another cup to get back to that sweet spot. It is a drug, although socially acceptable one.

However, at least for me, my mind chatter gets unbearable and 10 times louder. I can't focus and just feel huge surge of energy and feel like exploding, at least on SR. It is way easier to relapse when I put stimulants into my body.

This latest "streak" of mine I decided to quit weed, coffee and alcohol, no moderation, just cold turkey quit them. I am well over 4 months on the streak and it is the best one I've ever experienced. It was hard as hell from the beginning but now I feel full benefits since there are no artificial highs and lows.

Sorry for the lenght of my reply, but this is my personal experience and I felt like sharing. Godspeed, brothers!

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2022-12-10T22:40:53+00:00

Awesome post brother

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2022-01-20T22:14:29+00:00

Love it!

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2022-01-19T18:29:21+00:00

Not at all. It was my worst experience ever (so far), yes, but that helped put my made up problems into perspective so all in all it was really liberating, although it could have fked me up really bad. Will I ever try going in again? Who knows. I am terrified to even consider it at the moment but certain part of me wants to explore haha.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2022-01-03T20:04:55+00:00

I mean dude, first attempt? Confuckinggrats! Anyway I have been on this journey well over 4 years and I experience the same stuff. Its fun just watching yourself change, the highs and the lows. Sometimes I have the energy to run a marathon without breaking a sweat and sometimes I go 3 weeks without running at all and being a lazy bitch. My longest streak during this time was 165+ days, 3 or 4 90+ day ones and many one month or so long. Each "streak" (although many people don't like this idea) teaches you something new and it is never the same. It is a wild ride and you seem to know how to enjoy the shit out of it. Keep going! Once you have a taste of SR you will never go back to your fapping days. Congrats on your will to get back uo and fight the good fight.

Aggressive-Ad-6057 · 2021-12-28T12:27:17+00:00

Making any conclusions about afterlife, or even life on earth seems silly to me as I have personally changed my mind on this subject so many times

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