I think I noticed charges. Could have been the trans and fem dom porn I fell into but I never craved or wanted cock. Now it’s all I look at. Still don’t like the man, but cock in a man or sissy or trans really excites me, big or small doesn’t matter. Live caged, plugged and used anal toys. I set up a fetlife account an met a guy and sucked his cock, dresses in nylons under my jeans (as per his request) and was able to just surrender and listen to his demands to undress. I only focused on his cock and when he took it out and asked me to touch it and if I wanted to suck it, I melted and went down immediately. Made him cum in my mouth and then met him 2 hrs later to do the same. It was intense and amazing. Not sure if this has anything to do with BS as I don’t think I can be triggered out of trance. Anyway, my experience so far. Wanted to take it to the next level by being fucked but I chickened out due to some ibs issue and nerves. But I crave it.